FORGIVE ME
THESE PAST FEW WEEKS
I’VE BEEN DEALING WITH A LOT
I’VE BEEN DOING THE WORK
MY WORK
THE WORK THAT GOD HAS GIVEN TO ME
TO DO
TO BE
BUT THEN AND BUT AND AGAIN AND STILL
I
FOR THESE PAST WEEKS
NO MATTER HOW MANY
THEY GROW UPON EACH OTHER
ONE STRENGTHENING THE OTHER
WHEN ONE IS IN DOUBT
OF ONE’S SELF
ONE’S BEING
ONE’S BEING
SO MUCH EMPHASIS
HAS BEEN PLACED UPON THE RV
THE GCR
NESARA
GESARA
THAT ONE CAN LOSE TRACK
OF WHAT IS REALLY IMPORTANT………
GOD’S WILL
GOD’S WILL IS THE ONLY THING THAT MATTERS
ANYTIME
ANYWHERE
GOD’S WILL IS OUR PURPOSE OF BEING AND DOING
WE CAME HERE TO EXPERIENCE
ALL AND EVERYTHING
THAT IS NOT GOD’S WILL
TO SEE IF WE COULD ENDURE
ENOUGH
TO STILL ONLY
WANT
GOD’S WILL
AS CHRIST CAMER AND TAUGHT
THY WILL BE DONE
DRINK THE CUP
BITTER
BITTERSWEET
SWEET
DRINK IT
FIND OUT WHAT YOUR CUP IS
AS YOU DRINK IT
AND THANK GOD
GIVE GLORY TO GOD
FOR THE DRINKING OF IT
FOR WE ARE ALL HERE JUST A LITTLE WHILE
TO LEARN
TO EXPERIENCE
THIS THING
WE CALL LIFE
IN GOD
WITH GOD
FOR GOD
BY GOD
BECAUSE OF GOD
AND ALL OF THAT IS TRUE
AND YET
AND BUT AND STILL AND THEN
WE HAD THAT ANYWAY
WE KNEW THAT ANYWAY
BEFORE WE CAME HERE
FROM OUR SPIRIT FORM
AFTER ALL THE PAPERWORK WAS DONE
BETWEEN ALL AND ANY OF US
THAT HAD ANYTHING TO DO
WITH EACH OTHER
THAT ANNOYING NEIGHBOR
YOUR ASSHOLE COUSIN
YOUR SWEET AND KIND NEICE
YOUR LOVELY AND ALLURING CO-WORKER
ALLOF THIS
ALL O THESE
ARE TESTS
EXPERIENCES
AND YOU WILL
Mind you
YOU WILL ACT AND BE
AND DO
AS GOD’S WILL
DEMANDS THAT YOU BE
SO YES TO THIS
NO TO THAT
AND TOO BAD….
YOU WISH?
TOO BAD
YOU WANTED?
TOO BAD
LEARN
GROK
WHAT IT IS THAT GOD IS DOING
WITH AND WITHIN YOU
AND ALL AROUND YOU
THIS IS JUST ONE
LITTLE
SHORT LIFE
LIVE IT
DO YOUR BEST
LEARN
COME BACK
TO YOUR REAL AND TRUE SELF
AND FIGURE IT ALL OUT
TO SEE
AND DO AND BE
WHAT YOU MISSED
AND STILL HAVE TO DO AND BE
NEED TO DO AND BE
AND if you’re lucky enough
Fortunate enough
Blessed enough
TO STILL BE HERE
IN THIS GREAT TIME F CHANGE
THEN REALL
PAY MORE ATTEBTION
TO GOD
TO CHRIST
TO YOU IN GOD
TO YOU IN CHRIST
OR ALLAH
OR BUDDHA
BUT PAY ATTENTION
AS BEST YOU CAN
TO YOUR SPIRITUAL SELF
THIS IS WHERE THE FUTURE LIES
THIS IS WHERE IT IS ALL GOING
WE
WE WILL OVERCOME
BE UPLIFTED
OUR ORIGINAL DNA
RESTORED
AND ACTING IN FULL
LIKE THOSE ANIMES
WHERE THE PROTAGINIST
GOES TO ANOTHER WORLD
AND ALL THE SUDDEN
THERE IS MAGIC TO US
AND ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE
SO SHALL IT BE
FOR US
IF WE CAN ENDURE
IF WE CAN DURE ENOUGH
TO GET THERE
AND NOT GIVE UP
BEFORE IT MANIFESTS ITSELF
ALL OF IT
IN OUR OWN
MANIFEST LIVES
AND IT IS SO EASY TO GIVE UP
TO SAY FUCK IT
LET ME DIE
TOO MANY HAVE DONE THAT
AND HAVE DIED
AND YET
SO MANY MORE
HAVE DONE THEIR BEST TO LIVE
WITHOUT KNOWING ANYTHING
ABOUT GOD
OR THEMSELVES
OR THEIR REALITY
OR ANYTHING….
THEY KNOW WHAT THEY ARE TOLD TO KNOW
THE DO WHAT THEY ARE TOLD TO DO
THEY ARE AS THEY HAVE BEEN MANIPULATED
INTO DOING AND BEING
FOR LO
THESE MANY THOUSANDS OF YEARS
THEY KNOW NOT
WHAT THEY HAVE LOST
AS THEIR HISTORY HAS BEEN CHANGED
MANIPULATED
ADDED ONTO
AND DONE AWAY WITH
BUT THE TRUTH IS THERE
ALWAYS HAS BEEN
FOR THOSE THAT SEEK
FOR THOSE THAT SEARCH
FOR THOSE THAT MUST FIND OUT
THE TRUTH OF THEIR BEINGS AND EXISTENCE
NO MATTER WHAT
NO MATTER WHAT
THESE RE THE ONES WE SEEK
FOR THE FUTURE TIMES
THE TIMES TO COME
WHEN THE WAR IS OVER
FOR GOOD
AND ALL REMNANTS OF OPPOSTION
HAVE BEEN REMOVED
AND THE LIGHT AND LOVE
OF THE LIVING ONE
REIGNS SUPREME
ONCE AGAIN
AS IT WAS ALWAYS MEANT TO BE
AND THEN
AS WE REACT
TO THE PROSPERITY
OF OUR BOUNDLESS AND ENDLESS WEALTH
RETURNED TO US
TO HAVE
EACH OF
TO USE
EACH OF US
AS WE SEE FIT
LET US ALL SEEK TO USE IT
NOT SO MUCH FOR OURSELVES
BUT FOR EACH OTHER
LET US ALL
DO OUR BEST TO ACHIEVE
EAQUITY
PARITY
EQUALITY
AS ONE
IN THE ONE
AS HUMAN BEINGS IN AND WITH GOD
AND NOT AS GROUPS
THAT CAN BE SEPARATED
BY SUCH THINGS AS CLASS
OR EDUCATION
OR RACE
OR COLOR OR RELIGION
OIRK PLACE OF ORIGEN
OR SIDE OF TOWN
OR FAT OR SKINNEY
OR GENDER
OR EVEN GENDER CHOICE
We all have to be what we all have to be
After all…..
JUDGE NOT
BUT LET US ALL BE EACH OTHER
WITHOUT FORCING OURSELVES UPON EACH OTHER
LET THE CHILDRE GROW UP SAFE AND FREE
WITHOUT FEAR OR HINDRANCE
LET THEM BE
WHAT THEY ARE MEANT TO
FULL HUMAN BEINGS
AND LET THEM DECIDE FOR THEMSELVES
AS PER THEIR OWN THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS
UPON THE MATTER AT HAND
ALL AND ANY OF IT
NO RACE
NO RELIGION
NO SEXUAL ORIENTATION
NO POLITICAL IDEALOGIES
ONLY REAL AND PROVABLE TRUTHS
AND KNOWEDGE
THE REST
THEY WUILL DECIDE UPON
ON THEIR OWN
GOD OR NOT GOD
THEY WILL SEE ON THEIR OWN
LOVE OR FEAR
LIGHT OR DARK
THEY WILL SEE ON THEIR OWN
CHRIST
THEY WILL COME TO KNOW ON THEIR OWN
FOR IT IS THE ONE RESLITY
THAT IS MOST OPEN TO THEM
THERE WILL BE NO ANTI-CHRIST
TO OPPOSE ANY OF IT
IT WILL NOT EXIST
IT IS A LIE
A LIE THAT CAN ONLY DIE…..
HAVING NOTHING TO SUPPORT OR PERPETUATE IT
IT WILL DIE A FULL AND FINAL DEATH
OF CONSCIOUSNESS
AND THUS
CHRIST WILL BE KNOWN
THROUGHOUT THE WHOLE OF OUR UNIVERSE
OF NEABADONA
DN THUS
THROUGHOUT THE WHOLE
OF THE GRAND CREATIONEVEN THOUGH IT IS ALREADY KNOWN
AS WE KNOW IT
WILL BE A SPECTSCULAR SORT
OF DIVINE IDOL THING
GO FIGURE
BUT IT WILL ENHANCE THE WHOLE
GOD/CHRIST/ CREATED CREATURE THING
HUMAN AND OTHERWISE
SHOULD BE A LOT LESS CONFLICT AFTER THIS…..
YEP…..
AND SO
THERE I WAS
HERE I WAS
GOING THROUGH MY OWN PERSONAL
DARK NIGHT OF THE SOUL
ROUTINE
FOR DAYS AND DAYS
WEEKS IT HAS HAS BEEN
ABOUT TO LEAD INTO YET ANOTHER WEEK
AND SEEMINGLY MORE WEEKS
WHEN WILL IT END?
WHEN WILL WE RECEIVE?
WHEN WILL THE RV/GCR KICK IN?
WHEN WILL THE TRUTH BE BROADCASTED
AND EVERYWHERE?
IS THAT IN THE PLAN?
CAN’T EVERYONE KNOW?
WHY?
WHY NOT?
WAAAH………
LOOK
FUCK ME…….
SO MUCH TO LEARN
STILL
AND STILL HOW LONG?
HOW SOON?
SO LITTLE TIME TO LEARN IT
AND
AS ALWAYS
I AM TOLD
I AM COUNCILED
ADVISED
FRETTED OVER
WORRIED OVER
SIMPLY BECAUSE I WORRY SO FUCKING MUCH
I DO IT LESS NOW
REALLY
BUT WORRY IS AS WORRY DOES
AND SO
I GET STUFF LIKE THIS TO POST
BUT I LIVE
BEYOND FAITH
WHILE ALL I KNOW
AND ALL THA THINK THEY KNOW ME
SAY I’M JUST A CRAZY
FUCKED UP
IRREGULAR
PIECE OF WORK
THAT HAS NO CLUE
ABOUT HOW TO MAKE IT IN THE WORLD
BUT I NEEDED JOBS
THAT LET ME FOCUS ON GOD
AND GOD ALONE
I WAS BLESSED TO HAVE HELD
THE JOBS I’VE HAD
SUB TEACHER
JANITOR
I HATED EING A REAL TEACHER
SO I SUCKED AT IT
I AM NO AUTHORTIY FIGURE
I HAVE NO CLASDROM MANAGEMENT SKILLS
SO I CONSIDER MYSELF
A FAILED TEACHER
IT’S OK
ONE OF MySTUDENTS
FROM THEN
WAS GLAD TO SEE ME
HECK
SHE STILL RECOGNIZED ME
20 YEARS LATER
WITH A SMILE ON HER FACE
SHE TOLD ME SHE WSS IN THAT ONE
5TH GRADE CLASS
I TAUGH
I SHUDDERED
AND REPLIED
‘I HOPE YOU’RE ALRIGHT…’
SHE SMILED BACK
KINDA CONFUSED AT THE QUESTION
AND SAID
‘YES…YEAH….OF COURSE…..’
I WAS RELIEVED
FOR IT HAD ALWAYS WEIGHED HEAVILY ON MY MIND
I PREPARED THEM FOR THE TEST
BUT DID NOT TEACH NTHEM WHAT THEY COULD HAVE BEEN TAUGHT
I FOCUSED ON THE TESTS
THE STANDARD FOR THEIR CONTINUATION
I GUESS THEY ALL PASSED
GOOD ENOUGHSHE WAS HAPPY TO SEE ME
BUT HEY
SO WAS MY DOG
THAT GOT AWAY
YARS AGO
I WAS STANDING NEXT TO MY BUS
WHEN THIS ORDER COLLIE
WALKING BY
ALL THE SUDDEN
SMILED AT ME
AND WOULDN’T LET THEIR OWNER KEEPGOING
UNTIL I RECOGNIZED THEM
I THOUGHT IT
COULD IT BE?
YES
IT WAS MY LOST DO
AT HE I
YES
THAT’S TRUE
I COULD NEVER MAKE IT IN THIS WORLD
BECAUSE I LEARNED THE WORLD WAS A LIE
EARLY ON
WHICH RUINED ME
NO HIGH RANKING
HIGH PAYING
POSITIONS FOR ME
NAY
NUUH-UHH-HUUH….NOPE
ALL I WANTED WAS TIME
I KNEW I WAS WAITING
FOR SOMETHING
I TOOK JOBS THAT ALLOWED ME TO THINK
AND THINK ABOUT GOD
AND LEARN
LEARN ABOUT GOD
NOT MANY OF THOSE
JANITOR WAS GOOD
COSTLY
BUT GOOD
SUB TEACHER WAS OKAY
BUT OFFICE WORK
BEHIND A DESK
NOPE
WANTING A PROMOTION
IN SOME CORPORATION
THAT MEANT THAT THE BOS
YOUR MANAGER
TELLS YOU
TO DROP YOUR PANTS
IF YOU WANT THE PROMOTION
IF YOU’RE BLACK IN AMERICA
THERE’S AN EXTRA WORD ADDED…….
MY ELDER FRATERNITY BROTHERS
LAUGHED ABOUT IT
WHEN THEY JOKINGLY TOLD ME ABOUT IT
BUT IT WAS NEVER A JOKE
I’D BE SUNK
FIRED FOR PISSING ON THE DESK OF A SUPERIOR
NOT BECAUSE HE WANTED TO SEE
IF I WAS WEARING TIDY WHITIES
OR JUST THE FUN OF CALLING ME THE N-WORD
NO
IT WAS THE POWER OVER ME
THAT HE HELD
THAT ALLOWED HIM TO DO SO AND BE SO
BUT ONLY GOD HAS POWER OVER ME
AND I REALIZED
THAT I WOULD FIND OUT ANYWAY
SO I DID SO I DID MY BEST TO STAY OUT OF IT
THE SYSTEM OF THINGS
AND STUCK TO LOOKING FOR JOBS
WHERE I HAD TIME
TO THINK ABOUT GOD
AND MYSELF
AND THE RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN US
JANITOR
BUS DRIVER
THAT’S THE BEST I COULD DO
I LOST BEING A JANITOR
WHEN I BECAME A CERTIFIED TEACHER
HATED IT
I AM NOT AN AUTHORITY FIGURE
IN ANY SENSE OF THE WORD
IT AFFECTED MY PERFORMANCE
TO SAY THE LEAST……
I QUIT
LEARNED TO BE A BUS DRIVER
AS PER GOD INSTRUCTED
AND HERE I AM TODAY
BARELY HOLDING ONE TODAY
AND YET
RIGHT NOW
I FEAR NOT
I KNOW MY TIME IS COMING
I KNOW
THIS WORLD IS BEING HASTENED TO ITS ASCENSION
NO MORE DELAYS
ALL DEALYS
WILL BE DEALT WITH
IMMEDIATELY
IF NOT BEFORE THE FACT
SO SAYS SPIRIT
WHICH IS THE WORD OF THE ONE
THE WORD OF ALL THINGS
NOT THE HOLY SPIRIT
THAT SO MANY REFER TO
JUST…
SPIRIT
SUPREME CONSCIOUSNESS
THE ONE
AND I TRUST IT
AND SO
I AM WAITING TO SEE
THE VERACITY OF ITS WORDS
AS EVERY MOMENT
IN THE HERE AND NOW
THAT WE ARE ALL EXPERIENCING
REMAINS CHANGING
IN THE FLUIDITY OF EVERY MOMENT OF EXPERIENCE
I AM HOPING TO EXPERIENCE IT ALL
AT ONCE
WITH NO MORE ROOM FOR CHANGE
WE WILL SEE
WE WILL SEE
BUT ALL I KNOW IS
IT HAS ALREADY BEGUN……..
WE WILL SEE
WE WILL HEAR
WE WILL EXPERIENCE
WHAT GOD HAS IN STORE
FOR EACH AND EVERY ONE OF US
I WANT ONLY TO DO GOD’S WILL
TO BE GOD’S WILL
THAT SHOULD SUFFICE
CALL ME TOMORROW
WE’LL COMPARE NOTES THEN…….
FOR NOW
AS ALWAYS
GOD’S WILL IS DONE IN ALL THINGS
ESPECIALLY MY LIFE
AS IT SHOULD BE
AS IT SHOULD BE
I PRAY FOR MORE
ONLY WITH GREATER INSTRUCTION….smile…
AMEN
SELAH
Eyeh
Eyeh
Eyeh Asher Eyeh
(-i-)
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