I AM SITING UPON A MOUNTAINTOP……
THE MOUNTAIN OF MY ISLAND
AND I AM SITTING NEXT TO DABI
WHO COMES TO ME ALL THE TIME
AND SPEAKS WITH ME…….
AND WE SIT TOGETHER
LOOKING AT THE GREAT HORIZON OF TIME AND SPACE
AND I WONDER
AND WHILE I WONDER
I ASK THE QUESTIONS
THAT ARE IN MY MIND AND HEART
FOR I AM WHO AND WHAT I AM
OF CHRIST MICHAEL DABI
AND CHRIST MICHAEL DABI IS
WHO AND WHAT HE IS
AND THE ONE
IS WHO AND WHAT IT IS
WE ARE WHO AND WHAT WE ARE
ALONE AND TOGETHER……………
AND HE ASKS ME
DABI ASKS ME
IF I AM READY
AND I REPLY THAT HE HAS ASKED ME THIS FOR
AND I HAVE ALWAYS STATED BEFORE
THAT I KNOW NOT IF I AM READY OR NOT
AND HE ALWAYS TOLD ME
READY OR NOT
HERE WE COME
NOW I AM READY
AS READY AS I WILL EVER BE
I HAVE BEEN HANDED MY DIPLOMA
I HAVE GRADUATED
AND YET I AM STILL HERE
AND I AM STILL WHO AND WHAT I AM
AND I WONDER…….WHY……
AND THE ONE THAT I TRULY AM
THAT I AM
ALL THAT I MUST BE
THAT I AM READY TO DO
ALL THAT I MUST DO
AND I WONDER
AS I HAVE WONDERED BEFORE
WHAT THE FUCK DOES ALL OF THAT MEAN?
BOOT CAMP IS OVER
I AM READY
I HAVE BEEN HANDED MY DIPLOMA
THAT MUCH HAS BEEN PROVEN TO ME
I HAVE GRADUATED FROM THIS…….THING
THIS EXPERIENCE WITH AND IN THESE THINGS THAT I HAVE BEEN EXPERIENCING
I HAVE A SIGNIFICANTLY, INDIVIDUAL VIEWPOINT……
BORNE OF MY OWN EXPERIENCE……
AND I AM GRATEFUL FOR ANY AND ALL OF IT
I AM GRATEFUL FOR IT
ALL THAT HAS COME
UP TO THIS POINT IN MY EXPERIENCE
I AM GRATEFUL FOR IT
I AM GRATEFUL FOR HERE AND NOW
AS I EXPERIENCE IT
MOMENT TO MOMENT
FOR I KNOW
IT IS ALL GOD ALL THE TIME AND EVERYWHERE
AND I AM GRATEFUL FOR ALL AND ANY OF IT
FOR IT MEANS THAT I AM HERE
AND I AM GRATEFUL TO BE HERE
TO EXPERIENCE ANYTHING IN THE ONE
AND HERE WE ARE
AND HERE I AM
AND HERE YOU ARE…….
Having fun yet?
Figured out that all and everything is simply GOD being ITSELF?
THERE IS ONLY THE ONE
THE ONE THINKS OF ITSELF AND ALL AND EVERYTHING IS
IT IS EXPERIENCING ITSELF
AS ALL AND EVERYTHING
AND HERE YOU ARE
YOUR PART OF IT
MILLIONS OF RELATIONSHIPS
SITUATIONS AND CIRCUMSTANCES
ALLOWING FOR BIRTHS OF BEINGS OVER THE CELESTIAL AGES
THAT LEAD TO OTHER BINGS
AN OTHER BEINGS AND MORE BEINGS
ALL LEADING TO US
HERE AND NOW
YOU AND I
AND HERE YOU ARE
AN EFFECT OF AN ENDLESS STREAM OF CAUSE AND EFFECTS THAT
ULTIMATELY LED TO…….YOU
WHAT A MIRACLE!!!!!!!!!!
ALL THAT PLANNING FROM THE VERY BEGINNING OF CREATION ITSELF
JUST TO HAVE YOU AND YOU AND YOU AND YOU AND YOU AND YOU
ALL GLORY TO THE ONE AND TO THE ONE ALL GLORY!!!
GLORY TO GOD IN THE HIGHEST
AND THERE SHALL BE PEACE
PEACE ON EARTH
BETWEEN MEN AND ANGELS
AMEN AND AMEN AND AMEN!!!!!!!
FEEL BETTER ABOUT YOURSELF?
YOU ARE HERE BECAUSE GOD SEES FIT TO THINK OF YOU BEING HERE
AS IT THINKS ABOUT THE PROCESS OF ITS OWN PERFECTION
BEING MADE PERFECT IN EXPERIENCE!!!!!
Try to grok this as best you can…..
It took me awhile
But I got there
And if I got there
So can you…….smile
I KNOW NOT HOW TO EXPLAIN THE THINGS I AM GIVEN TO TELL YOU
SURELY AND TRULY THEY RUB AGAINST THE GRAIN
OF WHAT HAS BEEN DEVELOPED SO FAR
THERE IS MUCH THAT I HAVE BEEN GIVEN THAT IS COLLABORATED BY OTHER SOURCES
THERE IS THAT WHICH I AM GIVEN THAT SEEMS TO BE…DIFFERENT
IN THE UNDERSTANDING OF THINGS OF TO THIS POINT
THIS IS WHO AND WHAT I AM
AND THIS IS MY EXPERIENCE IN AND WITH THE THING
AND THERE ARE NO EXCUSES THAT I CAN OFFER FOR ANY OF IT
I don’t expect any of you to take my word for anything or believe me
You have to experience The THING for your own self and selves
I fully expect you to make up your own damn minds
I always have
Experience may vary
But the result
Will always be the same
The purpose is being fulfilled……muahahahahaha……….
ONE THING THAT I FIND MANY PEOPLE CAN’T SEEM TO GRASP ABOUT GOD
IS THAT GOD IS BEYOND ALL PARADOX
GOD CREATED PARADOX
AND GOD CAN BE THAT PARADOX IN OPERATION
AND BE THAT IN RESOLUTION
WITH AND WITHIN ITSELF
WHAT WE THINK CANNOT EXIST AT THE SAME TIME
EXISTS AT THE SAME TIME
WE ARE EXPERIENCING FREE WILL
WE ARE EXPERIENCING THE CHOICES THAT WE MAKE
IN BEING AND EXISTENCE
ALL OF THOSE CHOICES ARE CAUSES
WE ARE EXPERIENCING THE EFFECTS OF ALL OF THOSE CHOICES
AND THE CAUSES THAT STEM FORTH FROM ALL OF THEM
AND SO ON AND SO FORTH
AND SO FORTH AND SO ON
WE ARE BOTH CAUSES AND EFFECTS
YET WE VIEW THEM AS SEPARATE….SILLY US…….
BEING WHAT GOD IS
IS THE FULL EXPRESSION OF ALL OF THIS
ALL THE CAUSES AND EFFECTS THAT HAPPEN ALL THE TIME
ALL THAT IS GOD
AND ALL OF THE CAUSES AND EFFECTS THAT ARE BECAUSE OF ALL OF THAT
MOMENT TO MOMENT TO MOMENT
THAT IS GOD
You think you can keep up with all that
Be my guess and good luck with that……lol
GOD IS REAL
GOD IS ALL AND EVERYTHING
GOD IS ALL ARE WE ARE ONE ARE WE ARE ALL IS GOD
IT’S ALL GOD ALL THE TIME AND EVERYWHERE
THE ONLY THING THAT TRULY IS
THAT TRULY EXISTS
WE ARE JUST FIGMENTS OF GODS IMAGINATION
FOR WHATEVER PURPOSE GOD HAS FOR ITSELF
Here we are
And we are experiencing choices
Causes and effects based upon those choices
And we deal with it
All of that is called
We refer to it as free will
We have the perception of making choices
And experiencing the consequences of those choice
And we call it free will
But I am here to tell you that there is much more to it than you realize
And probably much more to it that any of you
Are willing to accept
I have accepted this
I consider it a fact of life
Being and existence
But that’s me
Don’t mind me
It is not my place to throw this shit in your face and expect any of you to deal with it
It took me years to get here
To this understanding
I went through a hell of shit to get to this…..
To arrive to this
Who the fuck am I to tell you what your life in GOD is?
Feel free to tell me to go fuck myself while masturbating in a vat of shit
As I am sure that some of you would like to
I may be just a messenger
But even a messenger has some responsibility for the message
He knew what it was
He knew how the people that received the message would feel
He had a choice to deliver it as given
Or change it
Or just burn the thing and walk away
And hope he got away with that….heheheheheh…..
Hey…it happens….God knows…….
But here I am
Having reached this point
And feeling that it is my responsibility to share with you
All that I go through
To the best of ability to do and be so
Fuck if you can take it
And fuck me if I cannot be proven wrong
And admit to it when it has been proven
Who among us in this place is infallible?
Surely not me
I am still human, after all
But like Neo….
I can still kick an agent’s ass when need be…ok?
Glad we cleared that up
Back to the meat on the plate…….
WE HAVE A PERCEPTION OF FREE WILL BECAUSE WE ARE ASPECTS, CONSTRUCTS OF THE ONE
IN THE MIND/HEART/CONSCIOUSNESS OF THE ONE
THE ONE KNOWS LL AND EVERYTHING
IT IS BEYOND PAST/PRESENT/FUTURE
IT IS BEING ITSELF
IT IS PERFECTING ITS OWN PERFECTION THROUGH EXPERIENCING ITSELF AS IT IS
AS IT WAS
AS IT WILL BE
HERE AND NOW
ANYONE THAT THINKS THAT THIS SAME ONE
THE GOD OF ALL GODS
THE SOURCE OF ALL SOURCES
WOULD OR COULD LEAVE ANYTHING UP TO CHANCE…….
WOULD OR COULD LEAVE ANY……..
IOTA OF A CHANCE OF ANY ASPECT OF….
Dare I say it?
ON ITS OWN PART
TO COMPLETE ITS OWN THOUGHT/FEELING OF ITSELF
AS IT SEES FIT TO DO AND BE?
In my mind and heart and experience
Such a thing is not possible even in the realm of its own impossibility
Surely impossibilities are experienced all the time in we see it all the time
What are odds?
How many times has the odds surprised us?
Our realm of consciousness levels dictates that we are here to experience all and everything that GOD is
in order to understand GOD and learn to be like GOD and act like GOD and do as GOD does
GOD HAS NO LIMITATIONS WHATSOEVER!
An here we all are
With heavy limitations placed upon us
As our natural state of being……
Why is that?
Is it so that we can learn from the causes and effects of our choices
So that we not only make choices…..
But learn to better consider our choices
And come to understand exactly why those choices were made
And had to be made…..
Seldom do we see the far reaching effects of our choices
We only think of ourselves…….
But our choices affect others
They affect others that we do not think of
Those that we do not know personally
And those affects become effects
Which become new causes
Which become new effects
And so on and so forth
And who of any of us is to say
What is good and what is bad and what is right and what is wrong
Without GOD to tell us truly the state of things
From moment to moment…….?
But hearing that answer takes listening for it
And how many take the time to do so?
How many take the time to be still with and within themselves
And to do so as practice
Until they can and have stilled themselves enough within themselves
To hear the voice of the Mind Of THE ONE
With and within them
All the time and everywhere…….
It is quite a task to do so
And quite a feat to be so
But anyone that puts in the work to do and be so
Can and will make it……
But that’s me
Don’t mind me…
I always figured that
If a fucked up kid from the south side of Chicago could do it
Anymotherfuckingbody could do it
And I still don’t think that I am wrong…..
So think about that, from time to time
No one is any better or worse than anybody else
It is simply of matter of what you are willing to imagine about yourself
And who you are
And what you are
And where you can go
And what you can be
Thought is everything in this game
Consciousness is everything in this thing
Feeling is more important than you think…..
You really have to put your self together
Piece by piece
And let nothing and no one stand in the way between you
And the path that GOD has established for you
From even the very beginning of that
Which is you
Which is really and truly GODS CONSCIOUSNESS IN YOU
YOU BEING GOD BEING YOU…AFTER ALL…
Are any of you truly feeling me on this thing or not?
Most of you still feel a need to separate yourself from GOD
As if you are really you……..
That you can be and do
All by yourself….
As if you exist in and of your own accord
You seem to think that all and everything about you is separate from THE ONE that thinks you up
FROM THE ONE THAT THOUGHT YOU UP
In the first place
That you are something that does not depend upon this ONE
For all and everything that is your life and being and existence
I am here to tell you that that is a mistake
For if THE ONE did not think of you
You would cease to exist
In any way, shape, fashion or form……
You feelin’ me yet?
Have you yet to feel THE ONE?
DON’T YOU FUCKING GET IT!!!????
THE ONE IS ALL AND EVERYTHING THAT IS!
IT IS ALL THAT IS!!!
IT IS THE ONLY REAL FUCKING LIFE THAT IS REALLY, FUCKING LIVING
AND IT HAS DECIDED THAT IT IS ALL AND EVERYTHING
AND THAT ALL EVERYTHING ALSO INCLUDES YOU
YOU ARE PART OF ALL AND EVERYTHING
THAT THE ONE DEEMS NECESSARY TO ITSELF FOR BEING AND DOING WHAT IT IS
AND THE PERFECTION THAT IT SEEKS
THAT PERFECTION OF A THING ALREADY BEING PERFECT
BEING PERFECTED IN INFINITE AND ETERNAL EXPERIENCE OF ITSELF
YOU HAVE A PLACE IN ALL OF THAT
BE YE LIGHT OR DARK
YOU HAVE A PLACE IN ANY AND ALL OF IT
FREE WILL IS SACRED SIMPLY BECAUSE IT IS THE WILL OF THE ON
IN EACH AND EVERYTHING
THAT MAKE THE LIFE OF THE ONE
WHAT THE WANT ALREADY KNOWS THAT IT HAS TO BE IN ORDER FOR IT TO FULFILL ITS OWN PERFECTION
THIS IS WHY NO ONE CAN FUCK WITH ANOTHER’S FREE WILL……..
THIS IS WHY ONE’S FREE WILL IS HEL SACRED
SIMPLY BECAUSE IT IS THE WILL OF THE ONE INSIDE YOU
AND THEM AND WE AND THEY
AND EACH OTHER AND EVERY OTHER
AS WE SEE OURSELVES IN THE ONE
AS WE PERCEIVE OURSELVES IN THE ONE
THIS IS WHY PRAYERS ARE ANSWERED
AND NOT ANSWERED
In our estimation and perception
For what is it that we pray for?
And who among us is the one to determine what should be and for whom and why and how?
Surely we can’t do that……
We are just….slaves
Learning what the master does
So that we can be called friends of GOD
Because we now know what the master is doing……….
GOD IS BEYOND PARADOX
WE EXPERIENCE FREE WILL
WE EXPERIENCE THE CAUSES AND EFFECTS OF OUR CHOICES
YET THOSE CHOICES WERE ESTABLISHED LONG AGO
ALL THAT IT TOOK JUST FOR ANY OF US TO BE HERE
THOUSANDS OF YEARS OF EVOLUTION AND RELATIONSHIPS AND CIRCUMSTANCES
AND MAKING LOVE AND FAMILY AND RAPE AND PILLAGE AND……SIGH
AND YET…..HERE WE ARE……YOU AND I……
HERE WE ARE
Either you see yourself as this
Or you see yourself as that
You feel that you are this
You feel that you are that
Whatever you think and feel that you
Why ever you think and feel you are….
Do your best
Be as true to you in your understanding and comprehension of GOD and your grokking of GOD as you can possibly be
All the time
Evolve in that
Let that be you purpose
For without purpose
We have no reason to exist…..
So either you think/feel that you exist
Either for your own purpose
Or for GODS purpose
The perception of deciding that
Is up to you in your own experience in GOD
Do your best to think about it and feel it out
And consider it all and figure it all out
As best you can
As best you can………..
This is more than enough for now
Too many pages make for a sleepy reader
And I have written too many pages for tonight….
I will continue to do and be as GOD wills
You do what you do and be as GOD wills, as well
This is my hope for each and every one and all of you