REPLY
AND HELLO TO KIM SUBIN……..
AND A BIG ‘THANK YOU!!!’ TO KIM SUJIN
aaaaannnnndddd here we go!:
IT IS HARD…I KNOW…..YOU ARE ASSAILED BY SO MUCH…..YOU MUST BE A VERY POWERFUL ENTITY TO HAVE ASKED TO COME HERE AND ENDURE ALL OF THIS
AND SO
I SALUTE YOU…….AND I AM DEDICATED TO HELPING YOU AS MUCH AS I CAN…..
Where to start……where to start……..
THE NEXT TIME ANYONE ASKS YOU
Where is God?
PLEASE TO TELL THEM THIS….BUT ONLY IF YOU TRULY BELIEVE IT…YOU HAVE TO BELIEVE THIS TO THE POINT OF KNOWING THAT IT IS TRUTH
REAL TRUTH
FULL TRUTH
TRUTH TRUTH…….
GOD IS ALL AND EVERYTHING AND GOD IS EVERYWHERE ALL THE TIME
ALL THAT HAS BEEN AND IS BEING CREATED IS GOD BEING THAT
FOR IT IS GOD THAT CREATES OUT OF WHO AND WHAT GOD IS….
THERE IS NOTHING BUT GOD
YOU CANNOT SEE IT BECAUSE YOU ARE LIKE THE ANT THAT CRAWLS UPON THE HUMAN BEING AND KNOWS NOT WHAT IT IS
BECAUSE IT IS SO LARGE
OR THE WORM THAT BURROWS INTO THE PLANET
NOT KNOWING WHAT THE PLANET IS
OR A BLOOD CELL IN A BODY
THAT KNOWS NOT THE BEING THAT IT BELONGS TO
YET IT FUNCTIONS FOR THE SAKE OF THAT BEING
THAT IS WHY YOU CANNOT SEE GOD
FOR GOD IS ALL AND EVERYTHING
THE SKY AND ALL AND EVERYTHING IN IT
THE GROUND AND ALL AND EVERYTHING ON IT AND UNDERNEATH
IT IS THE SAME FOR THE OCEANS AND SEAS
NOTHING CAN BE EXCEPT THAT GOD MANIFESTS IT WITHIN WHO AND WHAT GOD IS
AS ITS PART IN ALL AND EVERYTHING
ALL AND EVERYTHING
THE GOOD THE BAD, THE BEAUTIFUL, THE UGLY
ALL OF IT
WIND, RAIN, SNOW, HEAT
LIGHT AND DARKNESS
THE STARS
THE DAWN
THE DUSK
THE CLOUDS
THE TREES
THE GRASS
THE MUD
TRASH IN THE STREETS
SHIT ON THE GROUND
DUST IN THE WIND
ATOMS AND MOLECULES
MAKING UP WHATEVER THEY MUST BE
IN GODS WILL
THAT IS WHAT WE ARE
ALL OF US
ALL OF THIS
YOU AND I AND THEM AND WHATEVER
WE ARE ALL THE SAME
WE ARE ALL CREATIONS OF GOD’S WILL
YOU ARE GOD
I AM GOD
IT IS ALL GOD
AND IF YOU CANNOT SEE THAT….
IT IS BECAUSE THE ANT CANNOT SEE ALL AND EVERYTHING THAT IT CRAWLS UPON….
THE WORM ONLY KNOWS IT’S ONE, SOFT, MOIST SPOT
AND SEEKS THE SURFACE WHEN THE RAIN COMES
FOR THAT IS WHAT IT IS
AS GOD MADE IT TO DO AND TO BE
YET THE WORM KNOWS GOD
THE FISH AND BIRDS AND PLANTS
THE TREES AND FLOWERS
THE ROCKS AND MOUNTAINS
THE SAND
THE DUST….
THEY ALL KNOW GOD
FOR THEY KNOW FROM WHENCE THEY CAME
WHO AND WHAT THEY COME FROM
BUT WE
WE WHO SAY WE ARE HUMAN BEINGS
HAVE BEEN BRAINWASHED INTO FORGETTING
AND I
I REMEMBER
AND WANT TO LIVE THE LIFE OF GOD THAT I AM MEANT TO LIVE
I WILL ALLOW NO ONE
AND NO THING OF IGNORANCE OR DARKNESS TO GET IN MY WAY ANYMORE
FOR I AM WITH GOD
AND GOD IS IN ME
AND I KNOW THAT
AND THAT IS MY PROTECTION FROM PEOPLE THAT DO NOT SEE WHAT I SEE
AND FEEL WHAT I FEEL
AND WANT WHAT I WANT
TO BE WITH GOD ALL THE TIME
AND BE LIKE GOD IS
THAT IS MY RIGHT AS A HUMAN BEING
AND THAT IS THAT……
I AM WHO AND WHAT I AM
LET ME BE AS I AM
AS YOU ARE WHO AND WHAT YOU ARE
I LET YOU BE THAT
SO LEAVE ME BE
TO BE WHO AND WHAT I AM
AS I DESIRE TO BE IN GOD
AND BE NOT CONCERNED FOR ANY OF THAT
AND DO AS YOU WILL WITH YOUR OWN LIFE
BUT ME?
I SHALL LIVE MY LIFE AS I SEE FIT
AND I SEE FIT TO EMBRACE MY CREATOR
MY GOD
AS I SEE AND THINK AND FEEL AND HAVE EXPERIENCED GOD AS BEING
THAT IS MY WAY
THIS IS MY PATH
I AM WALKING MY PATH THAT GOD GAVE ME!
AND GOD WILL SEE ME THROUGH IT EVEN UNTO THE END…..
THAT’S WHAT I WANT
THAT’S WHAT GOD WANTS
AND THAT IS THAT
I KNOW YOU DO NOT UNDERSTAND
THAT’S OKAY
BUT THIS IS MY UNDERSTANDING
PLEASE TO NOT GET IN THE WAY OF MY PATH IN LIFE
AS LIFE HAS SEEN FIT TO GIVE ME
HAVE I NOT DONE THE SAME FOR YOU?
AND THEN WALK AWAY……
TURN YOUR BACK AND WALK AWAY
AND LEAVE THEM ALL BEHIND YOU
FOR YOU ARE TRAVELLING TO A GREATER PLACE
IN BEING
IN CONSCIOUSNESS
AND THOUGH THE PATH BE HARD
FRAUGHT WITH PROBLEMS AND PAIN
YOU ASKED FOR ALL OF IT
EVEN BEFORE YOU CAME HERE TO BE HERE
TO SEE THESE TIMES
TO BE A WITNESS TO THESE THINGS IN GOD
KNOW THAT YOU ARE A GREAT AND MIGHTY BEING
OF GREAT POWER AND LIGHT AND SERVICE TO GOD
AND YOU CAME HERE TO BE TESTED
AND TO OVERCOME
ENDURE
AND CONQUER ALL OF IT
GOD IS WITH AND WITHIN YOU
ALL THE TIME
ACCEPT THAT
ACCEPT GOD FOR WHAT GOD IS
TO AND FOR YOU
ACCEPT YOUR IMAGE OF GOD WITHIN YOURSELF
TRUST WHAT YOUR EXPERIENCES HAVE TAUGHT YOU THAT GOD IS FOR YOU
IN YOUR OWN, UNIQUE, INDIVIDUAL JOURNEY
FROM BEING PERFECT IN GOD
WITHOUT EXPERIENCE IN THE MANIFEST REALMS OF BEING
TO YOUR RETURN TO GOD
OVERFLOWING WITH EXPERIENCE
PLEASING EXPERIENCE
LOVING EXPERIENCE
ALL THE CRAP
THE SHIT
THE GOOD THE BAD THE BEAUTIFUL AND UGLY
AND THEN SOME
ALL OF IT
A TESTIMONY
TO YOUR GREATNESS IN GOD
AND GODS GREATNESS IN YOU
FOR YE ENDURED THE PATH
THE PATH UNTO YOUR PERFECTION
AND YOU CAME BEARING GREAT GIFTS TO GOD
AND ALL THAT GOD ENVISIONED IN YOU
WHEN HE CREATED YOU
HAS BEEN FULFILLED
UPON YOUR RETURN UNTO YOUR PERFECTION
THAT YOU SET OFF FROM OTHER
THAT FALTERED
AND FAILED
SO LONG AGO
AND STILL
YET TO COME…..
THE PRODIGAL OFFSPRING
RETURNED
AND THERE IS CELEBRATION AND DANCING AND JOY!
ROYAL GARMENTS AND JEWELRY
A CROWN UPON YOUR HEAD
AND LIGHT WITHIN AND AROUND YOU
ALWAYS AND FOREVERMORE…
A SEAT
A THRONE
A PLACE
AN ESTATE
A KINGDOM
A CREATION
THERE
THERE SHALL YOU GO
TO CREATE
TO CREATE THE UNIVERSE OF YOUR OWN MAKING
IN GOD
ALL IN GOD
ALWAYS IN GOD
BUT IT IS YOURS
A GIFT TO GOD
ANOTHER GIFT TO GOD
JUST LIKE YOUR LIFE…FUFILLED IN GOD
SO NOW SHALL YOU OFFER A CREATION FULFILLED
COUNTLESS LIVES
TO PERPETUATE GOD’S LOVE AND LIGHT AND GLORY
ALL AS YOU WERE
ALL AS YOU ARE
ALL AS YOU SHALL BE
AND IT GOES ON
AND ON
AND ON
ALWAYS AND FOREVER
CREATIONS WITHOUT END
AMEN
AMEN
AMEN
BUT ONLY IF YOU BELIEVE THAT IT IS SO
AND IN BELIEVING…COME TO KNOW
AND IN KNOWING…COME TO BE
AND IN BEING…COME TO DO
IT IS ALL UP TO YOU
WHAT YOU THINK
WHAT YOU FEEL
WHAT YOU WANT
WHAT YOU INSIST UPON……
WHO AND WHAT ARE YOU…AFTER ALL?
A MATERIAL AND PHYSICAL BEING?
A SPIRITUAL BEING IN A MATERIAL
VEHICLE
LIVING A…WHAT?
PHYSICAL LIFE IN PHYSICALITY?
OR
A SPIRITUAL LIFE IN PHYSICALITY?
A SPIRITUAL FORM OF MANIFEST BEING?
THESE ARE THE QUESTIONS THAT YOU WILL HAVE TO COME TO TERMS WITH
ON THIS PATH THAT YOU CHOOSE
ON THE PATH THAT YOU HAVE CHOSEN
IN THIS HERE AND NOW
SIMPLY BECAUSE IT IS THE PATH THAT YOU CHOOSE
EVEN BEFORE YOU CAME TO BE HERE IN THIS PLACE…..
HERE AND NOW IS THE TIME TO COME INTO AND UNTO YOUR OWN
TO BE
NOT JUST WHO AND WHAT YOU ARE
BUT ALL THAT YOU ARE MEANT TO BE
NOT JUST BY GODS WILL
BUT BY YOUR OWN WILL
IN SYNCHRONICITY WITH GODS WILL
BE ONE
ONE IN THE ONE
ONE WITH THE ONE
BE ONE
NO SEPARATION
KNOW
YOU AND GOD ARE ONE BEING
ONE BEING DOING THIS
BEING THIS
YOU ARE GOD BEING AND DOING….YOU
IT IS LESS IMPORTANT TO THINK/FEEL THAT
GOD IS BEING WHATEVER GOD IS IN YOU
THAN FOR YOU TO THINK/FEEL THAT YOU ARE
YOU
BEING WHO AND WHAT YOU ARE IN GOD
EXPLORE THAT
NOT THE IDIOTS AROUND YOU THAT SEEK TO DRAG YOU DOWN IN DARKNESS
SO THAT YOU FAIL IN THIS ASSIGNMENT
FIGHT IT
DO WHATEVER IT IS THAT YOU HAVE TO DO TO GET TO WHERE IT IS THAT YOU THINK/FEEL/KNOW
THAT YOU HAVE TO BE TO DO WHAT YOU HAVE TO DO
FOR YOUR OWN SAKE AND SALVATION IN GOD
AND GOD IN YOU….
ALL AND EVERYTHING DEPENDS UPON WHO AND WHAT AND HOW YOU DEFINE YOURSELF IN GOD
AND HOW YOU DEFINE GOD TO BE WITH AND WITHIN AND ALL AROUND YOU
ALL GOOD AND DUE AND EFFECTIVE AND JUST PROTECTION IS AVAILABLE FOR YOU
JUST DEMAND IT…OF GOD…
LET IT BE KNOWN THAT YOU WANT ALL SHACKLES AND RESTRAINTS REMOVED
DEMAND AN END TO DARK INTERFERENCE
ONCE AND FOR ALL TIME AND SPACE
AND AS YOU ARE LED TO DO
AS LONG AS YOU KNOW IT COMES FOR THE LIGHT OF GOD WITHIN YOU
DO WHAT YOU HAVE TO DO
PLAY YOUR PART
MAKE THE MOVES GIVEN TO YOU
STOP
GO
WAIT
PROGRESS
LEFT
RIGHT
FORWARD
DUCK
PUSH
PULL
TWIST
TURN
YOU’D BE SURPRISED AT THE LEVELS AND NUMBERS OF DIRECTIONS THAT YOU CAN RECEIVE FROM SPIRIT/GOD/CHRIST/PAPA/ATON/
GUARDIAN SPIRIT/HIGHER SELF/TRUE SELF…..REAL SELF……GOD SELF
BUT IT IS UP TO YOU TO DISCERN WHAT VOICE COMES FROM WHERE AND FROM WHOM….
THE WHOLE OF ALL AND EVERYTHING IS WITH AND WITHIN YOU
BUT IF YE DENY IT
FAIL TO SEE AND HEAR
AND THINK THAT IT IS SO
WHAT IS ANYONE TO DO?
JUST AS THESE ONES THAT SEE NOT GOD ANYWHERE
WHAT SHALL YOU DO
BE LIKE THEM?
NAY
YOU WANT MORE
BETTER….
BUT IF YOU ARE WILLING TO IGNORE OR DENY
ANY OR ALL OF IT
AT THE SLIGHTEST PROVOCATION…
WELL
IT MIGHT TAKE A BIT MORE TIME FOR YOU
TO GET TO WHERE YOU SAY THAT YOU WANT TO BE RIGHT NOW…
JUST SAYIN’…..
DON’T MIND ME…OR MIND ME….
AS YOU WILL OR DO NOT WILL
IT’S ALL UP TO YOU
WHAT YOU WANT AND ASK FOR AND DEMAND
AND EVENTUALLY GET…….
KNOW THAT GOD LOVES YOU
YOU HAVE MUCH HELP
GUARDIAN ANGELS
GUARDIAN SPIRITS
SPIRITUAL FRIENDS
AND WE ARE HERE FOR YOU, AS WELL
ALL OF US HERE
IN THIS COMMUNITY OF BEINGS THAT WANT NOTHING MORE THAN TO SERVE GOD
SERVE GOD ALL AROUND US
SERVE GOD IN US
SERVE GOD
AND YOU ARE PART OF THAT…
WHY?
BECAUSE YOU WANT TO BE!!!
THAT’S ALL IT TAKES
WANT IT!!!!
WHATEVER YOU HAVE TO DO TO GET THERE THAT IS PLEASING IN GOD’S SIGHT
DO IT
BE IT
LISTEN
HEAR
LEARN
DISCERN
DO
BE
WHO AND WHAT YOU ARE
ALL THAT YOU CAN BE
WILL BE
IT IS HERE RIGHT NOW
HAVE FAITH IN GOD IN YOU AND YOU IN GOD…….
Geez….this thing could go on and on and on……
Please to ask more questions…I will do what I can to answer all and any of them…
That goes for the rest of you, as well….
It makes my job easier on this thing…..smile….
LOVE YOU ALL
LOVE YOU IN GOD
LOVE GOD IN YOU
DON’T STOP
ENDURE
KEEP GOING
TRUST IN GOD TO BE WITH YOU
ASK, BEG, DEMAND THE PROTECTION THAT YOU DESERVE!!
DEMAND THE OPENING OF THE PATH THAT IS YOURS…THAT IT BE MADE WHOLLY CLEAR!!!!!
NO OBSTACLES…..NO BARRIERS
NO…NAYSAYERS….
NO…SPIRITUAL IDIOTS
NO DARK ONES
IN YOUR WAY
AT ALL
AND IT SHALL BE GIVEN
IF THAT IS WHAT YOU REALLY, REALLY, REALLY WANT
AND BE PREPEARED TO PAY THE PRICE OF IT ALL
HOWEVER EASY OR HARD
YOU GOTTA PLAY TO PAY
NO MATTER THE GAME
PLAY IN LIGHT
THE COST IS EASIER AND MUCH BETTER……
THAT IS ALL
LOVE YOU ALL
BLESS YOU ALL
KIBO
Kibodabi 
People like obama. people are pitiful.
Korean like obama. Obama is bad.
I think, black american is pitiful. obama exploit oneself pitiful.
American can’t have korea.
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Hate you
Hate you
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I LOVE YOU TOO……….
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I can’t believe you and abundunthope
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I don’t understand you.
You hide truth.
I am painful, how do you hide truth?
if You have this pain, you will know ghastliness.
you will forget God’s thinking. separation speration speration
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I apologise for the quality of my writing/spell-checking+editing — I know I could have done better, but — I simply don’t have the time today to really read what I should have and it just shows some of my inequality. Usually I edit the crap out of what I write and put into the public domain. I am wrting for the namesake of this post, and because I thought that if perhaps a word or two from my wrting is helpful to one or more… well you know.
Hi Kibo!!!! Feel free to delete me little message here—didn’t quite turn out like I expected and I’m quite out of time at the moment. Figured I may as well post my little progress on what I’d written rather than nothing. Again—if this is out of place or ‘out of phase’—just remove it 😉
I agree with Kibo’s writing (as usual)… But for some strange reason I was compelled by an intention to write to spite that I should be hard at work on something else at the moment…
Hi Kibo. I feel as to you and I have many things in common and I’ve never quite had the words to thank you for your providing inspiration and for being so WonderFully present.
—I’d better get back to work now… [yep, this would be the part I wrote last]
For the record, this is like the second time I’ve commented on a blog—nope third.
n’ dammit—I had hoped to do this anonymously—but I used the email associated with my weak little WP blog(s). ah well 😉
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just in case this may be of service if at all possible—by writing or hinting at some of the ‘keys’ or strengths that helped me through some of my darkest hours…
[I’m intent upon sharing a tale of mine along with some rant, apparently]
To give some insight into my character and environment(s), I’m pushing 40, I’m the only individual that I know personally who is empathic and clear minded enough to see into things intuitively and at times when intentions are in alignment with what I’ll simply call the ‘one mind’—through which I’ve seen quite a lot of amazing things come to be. Words and names are not so important to me (however important names and symbols may be in research and reading). I have experienced being ‘haunted’ with continuous experiences from the age of 3 (ghost haunting and triggering my fear) until the age of roughly 10yrs of age. The nature of the ‘haunting’ is a long tale and maybe a bit too complex to get into. From the age of 10 or so on, the physical manifestations for the most part stopped. My parents moved us to another residence. From then on, I have had several more experiences, but in stead of ‘breaking the rules of “reality”‘ (like banging on doors, moving and removing things, footsteps, voices[laughter]) most of the experiences were limited to my dreams. I remember lots of exciting, yet horrifying dreams to experience…and a particular entity that had been messing with me for years….
I have spent lots of time reading other experiences through the eyes of many experiences, and more importantly I’ve studied analog and digital SOUND quite a bit which was another ‘key’ to sharpening the mind that I use,.. as well as computer programming and other things.
One thing that I noticed was that no one ‘experience’ was like mine—the way that I perceived it—that is.
Okay. There is some background… Now the foreground: [nope, didn’t quite work like I hoped]
Truly I have no idea what I’m about to say, but the idea is that I would like to share some of the things that help me now.
I love.
I love this blog.
I read it when I’m down and it shows me how to light back up when I need it (among other things).
It reminds me of r.e.o. (and friends) quite a bit, but that’s another story and one that I have no right to tell since its not mine and in all reality I have absolutely no idea why I even wrote this sentence nor what I might be talking about. 😉
I love when I hate that I love when I’m hated and hate when I forget that I’m loved—but as much as I try (have tried) to be evil (and I’ve tried) there is that little spec of me that simply loves and knows better.
I also love a challenge, and have grown thankful for all of those things that seem like nightmares at the moment… but turn out to be the hurdles you can find ways to jump over.
The darkest ‘experiences’ I had ended (for the most part) when I was around 30. I had a mini-enlightenment experience (a few of them around that time) directly followed by some very strange strangeness. There was a very dark energy that came (seemingly) in the form of several attacks on me.
I don’t know what it was. It seems to know who I am though, as well as everything that I think. It had shewn me that it knew that I was thinking in several really strange ways. I don’t remember how long it continued, but I had loads of fun with the experience now that I look back—it wasn’t so fun when it was happening however. I don’t know what it was. It could have been one or many of the entities that attacked me as a child: ghosts, parasite entities, and the whole can of worms that pave the road to enabling such experiences. It also could have been a computer program piloted by some rather obscure individual. Could have been both.
One day (night), in bed… I suddenly felt a very strong anger combined with fear. I FELT IT… That is, I thought it was me for a minute.
Then I realized that it was not me?!
Same energy of anger and fear that I have produced?
I mean it was the exact same as my anger and fear, but it was now in the corner of my room.
At the moment I realized that it wasn’t me, and that this was one of the strongest energies that I had ever felt and experienced, I was PISSED!!!!
For hours, I ranted (in my mind)—speaking out loud the important parts. My rant probably started with something along the terms of clarifying to the entity that it was not (as shown by its actions) more than a parasite. A parasite however has a physical body and thereby contributes matter and energy back to the earth. I told it that it was not even as glorified as the slightest and smallest of parasites in its actions. Anger and instilling FEAR BY WAY OF THIS REALLY STRONG ANGER/FEAR VIBRATION?!!! HOW DARE YOU!!! WHAT IS CREATED OUT OF ANGER THAT IS NOT DESTRUCTIVE?!!! At least parasites function in the ‘grand scheme’ and fit into the rules of nature as percieved by consensus humanity. No, this entity is not even like a parasite. Its purpose is less then that of an insect. I ranted and ranted and ranted and called it profane names and my heart grew lighter and lighter—but the fury inside of me was measurably strong. Eventually I got along to telling ‘the entity’ that it in fact it is capable of so much good if it were to change, to work for good—but I knew that it wasn’t going to really help. I told it that it is so beautiful, its mind. Imagine for a moment that you are a spirit that has lived hundreds of thousands of years. You’ve witnessed worlds rise into light and fall into darkness. Civilizations, life-times and cycles. Now imagine that you are watching all the crap that happens here on this planet. People who do nasty things to themselves and others (themselves). They are shown the truth moment after moment, shown the miracles of each passing breadth—ignorant to the beauty that they are. Imaine falling in love with a human, while watching them born. Imagine watching the most godlike of creations, a child rise and fall as countless civilizations and individuals, having to bare the memory of each memory of each everlasting moment of watching those you love and have grown to love over the centuries ‘fall’ and become irrecognizable after only 16 Earth years of experience. I told it, “You are so beautiful—Your mind and your abilities. I AM NOT AFRAID OF YOU!!!! HERE I AM!!! I AM RIGHT HERE!!!!! If you have something to say, then SAY IT AND BE GONE!!!! SAY IT AND BE GONE!!!!! HERE I AM!!!”. No I didn’t stop there, and became quite repeditive until I had fallen asleep.
Once I had woken up, I felt a bit renewed as one might feel after waking up. I sat up in my bed against the head-board to think for a moment and that is when it happened…
Well actually, what happend is quite hard to explain. But it spoke to me on three levels at the same time. At the end of “MATRIX REVOLUTIONS” movie, the machine face says to Neo (anagram: ‘one’), “ITS DONE.”. That is one of the voices that I heard—or it was very much like that particular voice. Funny thing about the voice that I heard is that there was a low-quality sample-rate… like someone ripped the audio off of a crappy YouTube video. (Ever notice the vibration rate of your computer screen (flickering)? or christmas-tree lights?.. and get irritated and distracted by the notice?) So yeah. That was one of the voices. Another that I heard was that of either a great cat like a jaguar, lion or tiger—a big cat, or perhaps something like a crocidile. It was raspy and clicky and angry and I knew (know) full well I gave it ample reasons not to like me throughout my lifetime… I have afterall, shown to be quite the fool throughout a good portion of my continuing journey. Finally, was the third part of the voice that I heard. Now, keep in mind that this all happened at once. All along I could feel the entity empathically. I could feel that it could sense I felt and saw into it as it spoke. I could feel its fear that I can ‘see’ it. I could feel it pulling away in a way and kind of uncomfortable, surprised actually at that moment… that I could see it and that I was aware that it knew I could see it and feel its vibration and motions. It was really very strange and the most powerful of the three things that I felt/heard in that moment—because it was EXACTLY like ME, only it wasn’t. I should mention that the anger and fear that I felt is something that I thought about for years because it was me. Now me being the techie I happen to be, —well I’m aware of things that I could build, like a device that can read an energy frequency over time and play it back. I don’t know… Its like I had mentioned before. There was a being there when it happened making it happen, but I just couldn’t get over the sample rate issue with “ITS DONE”. There was a freaking LOW QUALITY SAMPLE RATE!!! It might have been, at least. The empathic feeling that I picked up from it however was real—but it was just like ME!! Maybe it was a recording of my frequency at some point that I was ‘triggered’ to be really angry and scared. It could all have been in my imagination, some thrifty software, or perhaps a few other-worldly entities. At any rate, indeed, it ended. After that moment had passed, I mockingly (like a jerk) I said “THANKS!” with a huge grin on my face. I honestly think I burst out laughing at it. HAHA!!! Did I mention that writing some crazy (love-light unicorns and rainbows type crap without the unicorns and rainbows) that triggered the whole thing? I’m not sure, but I believe that it was in fact the email’s that I’d sent that lined me up for targeting.
Lets say it was another failed attempt at ‘mind-control’. Lets also say that I left out around 89% of the story. I actually felt really bad that I was such a snotty little twerp when I realized how much I personally benefited from the experience. If it was an attempt at ‘mind-control’ (lets call it ‘steering’), then data was collected on me, just as it is by my writing at this moment. I guess what I’m trying to say here is that there are some big fish out there. Not all of them are mean, even if it seems that way. I’ve had many enemies and it turns out that that many of them I hold more dear then those who have been my closest friends, because THEY CHALLENGED ME AND I STOOD UP TO THE CHALLENGE.
In a particular dream that I had had, there was a 3ft tall little evil gray alien being. I looked at it because the energy that I had sensed emitting from it and it knew I saw deep enough into it that I recognized it. It revealed it self to me and as it turned out to be an entity common to my dreams that has challenged me time and again. It was a shape-shifter and all, however in dream-realms there is no telling what you are looking at. The point is, it was a being that I highly respect—along the lines of an angel. She has white hair and either green or blue eyes. Appears to be in her mid 40’s with a figure that is more like a 20yr-old beauty—but in her eyes and each and every one of her actions is the challenge of a riddle. Why? She had put me through some very strange experiences in my dreams, and perhaps quite un-pleasant—but looking back, as unpleasant as the dreams or experiences might have been—it was perhaps partly done out of amusement, but this kind of amusement was drawn about by an entity capable of a strength of WILL I have rarely encountered and had the ability to perceive. Like I had said before… Imaine watching over every little detail of a planet (or what ever your interests are on that planet). Imagine the will-power and focus that some of these entites have. Knowing the perfection of a person it loves and watching it destroy its spirit.
So you want to destroy yourself? I’ll help you—so I don’t have to watch you destroy yourself!! (just kidding)
I’ve studied quite a bit of math—and all my life I’ve had really strange experiences. I’ve seen the spirit forms of many people I know and love in my dreams and sometimes its very sad. They are so beautiful, each and every individual… but in their spirit form they are manifest in a form resonant with their thoughts. Sometimes it makes me quite sad to see how lost many of the people I love are, as I percieve them, at times.
What you think is what you create in this and each moment. You are free to create any kind of universe in your perception, in each breath and heart-beat—and particularly how you interact and percieve your interactions with others. What I say is actually mathematically solvant.
Find a channel for your energy when too much builds up, otherwise like me, you may be spending the rest of your life cleaning up a mess created by one simple irrational, or unfounded decision.
There is a lot of ‘magic’ to the simple act of thinking, feeling and breathing.
PAY ATTENTION TO THE TRIGGERS. CONTROL YOURSELF. LOVE!!!
Find your triggers that bring you back to where you want to be and work on them and build them if you havent found any yet.
BUILD YOURSELF!!! AND KEEP BUILDING!!!!
If you can’t shake the nasties from your thoughts, then just do the best you can. Look up astrology, tarot, I-CHING. Each of those three things will feed you images, symbols tools and containing wisdoms that are thousands upon thousands of years old. If you’re young, LISTEN TO AND KEEP CLOSE TO YOUR GROUCHY ELDERS IF AT ALL POSSIBLE AND ASK LOTS OF QUESTIONS (if you can)!!! You might not like all your answers and may not get the connection-quality you were hoping for, but if it werent for my elders and my respect for what they think is important (even if I don’t believe in all of it), it would have taken years upon years more to learn many of the things.
I know there are times that it doesn’t matter what I do—I just can’t shake off my anger after an argument or problem that I hadn’t yet solved….
Another thing is that when ever I get really angry or even really happy—eventually it crashes back down to zero or perhaps even reverses poles from anger to happy, or happy to anger. You want to find that zero point. If you don’t know your zero point, then you don’t know when you are causing a crash by getting too excited about something that really isn’t much after all (hence the following crash).
WATCH YOUR MIND!!!
Go outside and look at the Sun or the Moon or the birds!!!!
If what you look at is what you connect to and create, look at what most people are doing, looking at. Look at them looking at it. What music do you enjoy??? What do you enjoy about it?
—On the note of music (I LOVE MUSIC!!!!)— I love playing my (electric) piano more than many things when I’m upset, or fretting my guitar—drawing, watchin a GOOD movie (if possible).
try this one:
(granted, is in english and all) You might not like the particular song so much—but I tried 😉
Go through your music and start categorizing it and read all the lyrics if you hadn’t. LEARN FROM IT. DRAW and look at the categories of artwork out there, now. Then look at some Caravaggio 😉
https://www.google.com/search?q=Caravaggio&safe=off
How does it make you think and feel. How do the colors work.
There is so much you can do—other then focus on the CRAP.
What are you thinking? How are you reacting?
Are you creating your fears? Are you afraid? Annoyed?
What do you want? You can afterall do anything in the world if you put your mind to it. How much does you environment play a role in triggering your anger and fears, and what can you do to change that to your benifit?
Do you like to draw or write? I used to write a journal. Now I write several journals on my computer and I never even read any of it.
My only point is throughout all of this writing is that each and every moment is a moment that you can be sharpening the tool that your body is—however you want to sharpen it.
My choices were quite foolish… I had chosen the foolish route knowing that one day I would have to clean up the mess or die trying. I’m going to die trying—just as I’m going to live on, loving.
My #1 angst and hatred with GOD over the years was that until I was around 30yrs old, all (99%) the ‘paranormal’ experiences I had encountered were of an ‘evil’ nature. I heard and felt some evil nasty things for quite a few years—messing with me. Never any good ghosts. Never any super happy dreams. It was always dark and evil experiences. I’d think, “Why GOD?, if you’re so powerful, why don’t you help me?”.
On the other hand—I realized that ‘GOD’ appears to act silently, anonymously and usually through any particular medium such as nature or even a good, beloved friend, stranger or family member. But always silently—no ‘reality rules’ broken. The dark Ones will break the ‘rules’. Even when I had the ghost crap following me all over the place when I was a child, now, looking back I can see how I was ‘tuned in’ to receiving that kind of an experience.
I’ve learned over the years that I’m responsible for each and every negative thing I’d encountered either because of how I had thought, or the choices that I had made—in how I reacted or affectively acted.
Call it wisdom, knowledge or what you will.
Perhaps I knowingly chose this challenge? Perhaps not! The way, I see it is based on what I had learned of studying sound. For example, our bodies and minds very much act like filters, filtering out all but what we are resonating with physically. “Its all matter”, (some oneness once told me). “REACH!, SWEEP!…”. I’m holding back some strange experiences here—sry;)
Most importantly, each and every horrendous experience I’ve encountered has provided me with challenges, most of which I’ve been able to overcome. There are times that those strengths come in handy. You can find your opt-out option, I believe, however it takes a strong will-power and BELIEF/KNOWING/CHOOSING. Another important thing when you do make choices is to be aware of the roads less traveled vs roads that are seemingly paved in gold for you. Either road will bring you experiences to learn from—just be aware that its all up to you to choose, and pay attention to your heart.
All my life, I have witnessed the same similarity in that no one’s reality is exactly like another, and very few people appear to have the time or patience to merely listen—and that can be very painful—so for me, I’ve had to find my outlets, because no one wants to listen to my craziness for long—even if they think they did to start off. In fact, from where I’m looking not too many people including myself work as hard as they can to strengthen their WILL to such a point as one that can change the world like Tesla did, and many others working together today.
Another tool that really works amazingly is to love and respect your enemies. I have a friend who at one time was an enemy. He can become quite frustrated, angry and troublesome at times. When I take the time to think well of him. Is like magic sometimes, the effect. Especially when we get into some debate that triggers him. Did I mention I could be quite mindless and annoying ???
We and all perceivable matter appears to exist in such a tiny tick on the spectrum of existing light/life frequencies. It had occurred to me (rooted in meditating on many things such as Pythagorean key-scale mathematics) that all that exists must be perfect, otherwise it could not possibly exist. Don’t take my word for it. It took many years to find my proof and I don’t know one person around here that I’d met personally who could explain, source and/or footprint as much info on waves as I—let alone tell some of the tales I’ve got in the vault. I can’t prove or force any truth on any particular individual. They have to think it to know it—and trust me, if you can think it—its been done. (or don’t take my word for it).
At ‘any rate’, its a hard thing to wrap your mind around (everything being in a state of perfection and alignment with the will of one mind), but truly, NOW… you can youtube and find proof of such things in a matter of minutes. “Keshe Foundation” as an example provides several topics, evidences and proofs that in my youth was infathomable as computers and the internet was not quite as public as it is now in any way shape or form.
I for One believe that we are all pieces of one consensus mind.
We all have our pitfalls and our unique placement within each of our perceived environments.
Dammit—there are way too many things that I’m not going to say and this is why I very rarely write anything and post it online anywhere 😉
Sure, it took 10+ years to change a lot of things worth changing.
It took years of studying various topics to realize that I know nothing all over again. The sun rises, as does happiness and suffrage. Then again, I’ve set what I thought at the time were some awesome goals, and accomplished every one that I’d taken seriously and put work into.
Happiness (to me) is a choice, and a path—like perfection.
I for One, choose happiness.
To create happiness the way that feels right to me.
Facing your fears is another thing few people really focus on. I’ve got a lot of bad habits too. I should face some more of those my self. I was lucky. I had been attacked by some rather evil stuff. I got lots of practice facing my fears. Everything you are experiencing that challenges you can only make you stronger, and more experienced. What are your limits? —I’m guessing the second you identify your fears, or soon thereafter you’ll find yourself confronted with them. The subconscious mind is cool like that… It always seems to give what you need, weather you like it or not—so that you can face it, learn it and grow. You have every right to deal with whatever that happens to be however you like, along with experiencing the consequences. The key here, is that it may take some practice, but if you simply trust that all things are working with and for the greater good of yourself and All that Is—really makes things much easier—but even that takes some work—and it is very much worth it, to be optimistic.
Another simple principle to set into practice is that you get what you give x 3. One of my mini-enlightenment experiences was triggered from simply giving my loving thoughts to a stranger, kind of like my writing now (if I actually post it). The act of giving without expectation is in alignment with the greatest good, and in my opinion—what I’ve learned from such experiences is that the energy and love that you can connect with through such experiences is aligned with MUCH HIGHER WISDOM than one might ever be able to explain in a single human lifetime. I’ve met beings through such and usually only when properly aligned with—and there is no human way I can think of to really properly explain the wonderful experiences I do recall to another individual, unless the other individual has had similar experiences, or understanding. This is probably the most important helpful advise I can attest to. What frequencies are you attached to? What are you attracting or in alignment with…
You are never alone. Ever been naked in public in your dreams? Try to face that fear. How would people react to your reaction? Would you be able to control yourself and how you would react if someone, some random person saw you naked? Sounds silly and all—but any fear is one worth overcoming. Doesn’t mean you have to jump into a snake pit or anything to face it, put pay attention to all of the programming in your body that is instinct —compared to what is truly your will? Most of us down here seem to let our bodies run in autopilot.
There is so much I would love to have thought of writing and I probably won’t have the time soon.
I’ve learned not to expect anything and try very hard not to emit or produce anger or fear, for example when writing publicly. That is another reason why I don’t share the depth of some of my ‘tales’, because there is some pretty dark stuff in there.
Its a day to day thing, staying ‘clear’ of frustration, and ‘zeroing’ out is certainly one of the best tools in my toolbox but it doesn’t work all of the time. I don’t expect anything that I say to be held as truth to any particular individual because it is within their right to create and learn from as many mistakes as one may choose. My trick would be to go right to making lots of mistakes so that I can learn from them. Of course, I’m ‘Scorpio’ and that is common to scorpions and all… but if it weren’t for all of my failures and proverbial ‘hell’s, … (what do I say now?)
… well, you know.
I thank, love and believe in all of yous.
-tom
Kibo, ¡you are absolutely inspiring!
Thank you again.
I’ve never really thought of a way to say hi, and when I’d read this,..
well, its one way to say hello I suppose 😉 Apologies for the length
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I want to kill girl
Next door!!!
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NO KILLING!!!!
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She Mindcontrol me
You know situation? but you don’t tell me.
Why?
I angry
Fuck you
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next-door girl play mindcontrol at me?
i hear voice
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No, I am trying to give you info re high technology that exists and other issues that may be what you are experiencing, I don’t have the details to know what direction to give you so I am giving you general. I have never used the language transcriber so I don’t know what your messages in your language say. A U.S. movie, re-made where the remake gives the chip info, is called ‘The Manchurian Candidate’, was made on this subject. I own both but that is not where I have learned on the subject, more other directions and much info is on the internet on this subject. There is also other types of mind control, My understanding is some of this technology is via undersea bases controlled by the Reptoids. Prisoners in a Utah Prison were also subjected to this technology without their permission, voices being put into their mind to experiment on what type of control can be instigated upon them. Christ Michael Aton has prior said, do not take the chip, it will control your mind. Obama tried to sneak the chip in his medical U.S. plan but got caught and it was removed. There is also a chemistry imbalance of the body or mental illness that can create false memory. A movie called, ;It’s a Beautiful Mind” is a true story of a very intelligent man who had this imbalance and had to learn how to control it, realize his mind was playing tricks on him, and he ended up earning a very very high award for his work. A friend of mine’s husband had this same disease and the only medicine destroyed his musical artistic ability so he refused the medicine and he would go off into an opposite personality, his wife also feeling he was demon possessed. There is also what is called subliminal’s in the music and movies that gives/projects thoughts into the brain. The technology is advanced beyond what many realize.
This link is simple but it’s a free encyclopedia on the internet. It’s not always totally accurate but does have some good info. Here is their link re brain washing.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mind_control
Mind control (also known as brainwashing, reeducation, coercive persuasion, thought control, or thought reform) is a theoretical indoctrination process which results in “an impairment of autonomy, an inability to think independently, and a disruption of beliefs and affiliations. In this context, brainwashing refers to the involuntary reeducation of basic beliefs and values”.[1]
Key in Mind Control off your internet, in your language, where videos from people are. Here many use YouTube but they remove much also, etc. Listen to other peoples experiences.
You have been given various avenues. It’s up to you to research and review and find the answers. I am not trying to mind control you. There is another saying, You can lead a horse to water but you cannot make him drink. I think other countries call the horse a camel. Keep your mind open to something that may be new to you. Another saying is, Don’t kill the messenger.
There are other people that have experienced mind control and have gone open, gone public, of their experiences. There are other people that have lived with various forms of abuse, both mental and physical. The info is out there if you really want to learn. Knowledge is power and the more you learn on the subject, then the more you will be able to help yourself.
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Kim: Here is another write-up on the mind control subject. This site has really good info on numerous subjects.
http://www.bibliotecapleyades.net/sociopolitica/esp_sociopol_mindcon02.htm
The various avenues used to control human behavior under MKULTRA included:
radiation
electroshock
psychology
psychiatry
sociology
anthropology
graphology
harassment substances
paramilitary devices
materials “LSD” being the most widely dispensed “material”
A special procedure, designated MKDELTA, was established to govern the use of MKULTRA abroad. MKULTRA/DELTA materials were used for harassment, discrediting or disabling purposes.[8]
There were 149 subprojects listed under the umbrella of MKULTRA. Project MONARCH has not been officially identified by any government documentation as one of the corresponding subprojects, but is used rather, as a descriptive “catch phrase” by survivors, therapists, and possible “insiders”.
MONARCH may in fact, have culminated from MKSEARCH subprojects such as operation SPELLBINDER, which was set up to create “sleeper” assassins (ie. “Manchurian candidates”) who could be activated upon receiving a key word or phrase while in a post-hypnotic trance.
Operation OFTEN, a study which attempted to harness the power of occultic forces was possibly one of several cover programs to hide the insidious reality of Project MONARCH.
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Kibo, Do you happen to use any form of messenger from your mobile?
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i do not have a mobile…I have a simple star trek phone……talk and listen and text….I stay away…..for now…from all that web on phone stuff……but that’s me…I prefer email…silly me…
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Some of the more modern phones are tracking devices and many will not use.
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I don’t want creator
Why i want to rise, because i want to get out mindcontrol. Creator produce pain. i really don’t want creator.
I don’t understand darkness’s greed. Trifle mind is what?
If darkness don’t have trifle greed, universe is happy.
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I can’t delete darkness mind karma.
i hate Darkness
I don’t want.
Darkness? kidding me? they are kid? Why i am delete thair karma?
I am service man?
Alone?
I am robot? I am human. People don’t know my situation. They curse me and ignore me. they are selfshness. they injure me.
Granpa.. my heart don’t same granpa heart
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I feel pain i am human.
Karma is heavy.
Don’t expect me.
Kibo.. you can endure?
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I don’t want your reply
I am tired
I don’t want with you. you make me more more tired..
Always repeat.
Will not change. People and you and god don’t expectation to me. Karma..
People injure me manymanymany.
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Guardian don’t protect me.
Why?
God don’t protect me.
Why?
god love me?? You lie. god is scientist.
I know god but don’t believe god’s love.
I am brainwashing long time. i don’t believe anymore, they protect me. Everyday i am disappointment. Pray is useless. Guardian hate me or experiment me. you injure me.
I have utility value??? Create is fun? CM laugh lol. Injure me
darkness Forgive? repeat again again again???
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Whatever your comment, i am really tired.
i am exhausted. long pain, when wake up morning durty dream injure mindcontrol everyday, people’s unconcern selfshness ignore. i am along. family don’t believe mindcontrol.
Brainwashing. you don’t know braingwashing pain. you are selfshness. i am not you. you are not l. you don’t know my heart. only want happy ending.
i don’t want to hear “It’s up to you”
Why god made me?? If god made me, i am free.
They and you and god don’t know my heat.
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Kim:
There are various types of mind control. One well known one is called MK-Ultra where there is a lot of material on the internet and on YouTube on this subject. With the new technology they can read your mind and insert thoughts into your brain. Some is done via a RFID Chip that has been put into your body, sometimes through a needle, a vaccination/shot, a hospital visitation. If you are chipped then an x-ray could show it but I’ve also heard a simple Stud Finder can locate it, what construction people use to find studs behind the walls, the older ones are suppose to work best and they are cheap. I don’t know if true but there was something about a certain way to arrange a certain type of magnets over the chip can knock out the RFID chip but again I don’t know if true. I’ve been having constant computer problems, I lost one of my bookmarks tools that has some on this subject and I keep getting hacked and shut down and various problem resolutions has not worked so-far so I am limited right now There is a person that is an expert on this subject but he was jailed for trying to stop this problem, knew how to re-program and telling people the procedures, then a set-up to shut him up, now he’s been released. It will take a while to re-locate his name and he has a site that is not detailed like his other yet he is an expert on the subject and is on YouTube. I think his first name is Spritz, not sure but similar? Another that is familiar with some of the technology on this subject is at this link. http://www.stopthecrime.net/ There are others. There are ways to stop the transmitting of the frequencies that cause inserting memories into your brain and material on this subject and what is needed on the internet. Some actually sleep with a faraday type technology surrounding their bed or special material around their bed to block the signals. Some of these signals are being transmitted via what they call satellites to phone towers to smart meters here, some other through high tech. equipment. Melatonin chemical is removed from the brain in many cases due to some of these procedures but you can replace cheaply in pill form from most over the counter drug stores, part of vitamins, which I take nightly, just to be safe. Much on the internet on this subject.
I can’t copy below because it’s copyrighted, Candace is the only one allowed to copy this material, but will give you some of the answers you seek on the spiritual end. PLEASE read some from here, it really will help you understand why you feel God has abandoned you but hasn’t and how the soul lessons is the reality and some of what to soon expect from the galactic end.
http://voiceofesu.com/esus-messages/
We are basically living in a Matrix, inside a hologram, where before we were born we had made a form of a contract on what we were to experience and learn for our soul development. This is also a prison planet but this appears is to change within our life times. The dark are destroying Earth and that will not be allowed. Then there are free will laws where Source will not directly interfere but will, at times, give you/lead you to various types of info, much via the guides that are assigned to you, for your help and to direct you. But I know from experience that when you are extremely stressed that your full brain operation is not working and it’s hard to turn off the brain chatter and calm down. Sometimes the answers are given to you in your dreams. They say your soul can leave the body during this time and go into the spirit world. This is also why people are directed to meditation which I personally have a very hard time doing.
You had prior asked if the 11:11 angels material I gave you was real, where the higher galactics give this info to various members of the Urantia Group. From what I know of this is real. Abundant Hope, Candace, on her/their blog, also has some of these messages posted. Here is the direct link and if you want you can go onto the mailing list for their spiritual lessons. http://1111angels.net/
Try to think positive, I know it’s hard, believe me I really know it’s hard when shit doesn’t stop. I know what it’s like to wake up with recurring night mares or crying when you take a shower or uncontrolled shaking or people not wanting to listen or understanding so you can relieve your stress and hopefully get some answers, people not understanding that it’s become a near daily part of your life and avenues are short to resolve the problem I know what it’s like to be afraid for your life and asking, why me, feeling that prayers are not answered. But then you get led to some answers you need. It’s said God will not do for you but will lead you to what will help. There is an old saying, ‘When There Is A Will, There Is A Way’.
Hope this helps and let me know if you had a chance to read this message for you.
Stay determined and positive and plan what you need and then do it. Easier said than done. Check out on the internet some activist groups that deal with what you are going through and they may be able to lead you also. If one fails then try another. Keep what you have on your computer away from spying eyes.
Good Luck.
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