wow….I am actually intrigued that this ‘slave’ thing has generated the reaction that it has….I expected such when I compared GOD to being some sort of Divine GodFather of all GodFathers in a cosmic, heavenly mafia…of sorts….lol…..and that fit for me at the time and still does, btw…….
and then the corporate Boss…which is just as much CM as it is PAPA….GRANDPA being Founder….
to me all of these are one thing
all of the above
love devotion and surrender and sacrifice and obedience…….
it may just be only me in this little room of consciousness that I find myself in
these are my experiences
my thoughts concerning THE THING
THE THING, THAT THING, WHICH IS GOD CREATOR SOURCE
GOD OF GODS AND SOURCE OF SOURCES………
THAT IS WHAT I ADDRESS
THAT IS WHAT I SERVE
AND WHAT IS IT TO SERVE?
it is up to each and every one of us as to how we perceive and conceive and accept
our vision and concepts of what it is to serve GOD…being as our own, individual concepts of GOD may be…and that is what we react to…….our experiences based upon all of our thoughts and feelings concerning the matter of GOD…..
Personally…I have no problem with it…obviously….
in my mind and heart, I came and begged to be chained to GOD and used as a slave
expecting nothing in return but the pleasure of serving and being with GOD and near GOD
and being able to observe GOD and talk with GOD and ask questions
and have them answered
about why GOD does what GOD does
to search and feel the mind of GOD and come to know it intimately
to search and feel the heart of GOD and come to know it intimately….
being a servant wasn’t enough for me…me…
me, me, me…lol
perhaps that’s my problem, after all…
i’ll deal with that as I can….
right now…..it’s just me and all about me
striving to do all I can to make all that is me to be all about GOD…..
that’s my purpose in life……to emulate GOD
to be like GOD
to act like GOD….
and in order to do that
I have to be with and around GOD as much as possible
and what better way to do that
than being a willing and loving and loyal and devoted slave to GOD?
to chain myself and my self to GOD
to be with GOD in all things all the time
and do as GOD says do
and be as GOD says be
all the time
and in all things
that is my greatest desire
that’s all I want and need
that is my view and way and path to the perfection that I seek in GOD
that has been promised to me by GOD…..
and I can only be that perfect if I can see the perfection of THE FATHER OF ALL THINGS in action….
in me and all things
those around me
what they are experiencing
what they are being in GOD
whether they know it or not …….
all of us
mechanisms of expression
we are all vehicles of expressions for GOD
in my mind and heart and experience
none of us are really here
there is only one thing
and that is GOD
as we see ourselves
are just manifestations
creations of GODS Will……
we exist only because of GOD
and so we all owe GOD all and everything that we are and have
being that all that we have has been given to us….to expand upon and increase ourselves in experience
that GOD may experience it all through us
and in being fulfilled in us
GOD is fulfilled in us being fulfilled in GOD
as we are fulfilled in GOD
so is GOD fulfilled in ITSELF…….
it is as the servants that were all given a talent
and told to increase for the sake of their master…….
we must return to GOD increased
increased in experience and knowledge and being
LIFE IN GOD
ALL THAT GOD IS
WHICH IS ALL AND EVERYTHING
THE WHOLE OF BEING AND EXISTENCE…….
which is what we are all a part of
GOD IS BEYOND ALL THAT
BEING BEFORE IT AND AFTER IT……
The creation is wholly and fully owned by the creator of it
I AM A CREATION OF GOD AND AS SUCH AM FULLY AND COMPLETELY OWNED BY GOD.
I KNOW THIS AND NO ONE CAN CONVINCE ME OTHERWISE
THIS IS THE REALITY THAT I EXIST AND ACT AND DO AND BE AND THINK AND FEEL IN.
IN MY EXPERIENCE WITH THE THING THAT IS GOD…….
THERE IS ONLY GOD
I AM JUST A THOUGHT
OF THE SINGULAR WILL, IN THOUGHT AND FEELING, OF THE ONE AND ONLY THING THAT TRULY EXISTS…..GOD
IN MY MIND AND HEART, NOTHING EXISTS BUT AND EXCEPT GOD AND GOD IS THE ONLY THING THAT TRULY EXIST!
ANYWHERE AND ANYTIME HAS NO MEANING IN THIS SENSE…SO I DISCARD IT AS AN ABSOLUTE OR ULTIMATE OR SUPREME REALITY…THERE IS ONLY HERE AND NOW AND IN THAT HERE AND NOW ALL THINGS ARE MANIFEST AND HAPPENING AND BEING EXPERIENCED AND DEMONSTRATED, ALL AT ONCE.
ETERNITY AND INFINITY IN A SINGLE MOMENT OF THE FULL AND COMPLERE THOUGHT OF GOD THAT IS GOD BEING AND DOING WHAT IT IS…WHCIH IS ALL AND EVERYTHING AT ONCE.
IT HAS DECLARED THAT IT IS OPEN SEASON ON THE HUNT TO TRACK DOWN AND INSURE TH WAY, THE PATH, TO THAT VERY SAME PERFECTION THAT IT, ITSELF POSSESSES……
BE YE PERFECT, EVEN AS I, YOUR FATHER IN THEHEAVENS, AM PERFECT.
HOW DO I DO SUCH A THING?
AM I CONTENT TO JUST LEAVE IT UP TO MY OWN THOUGHTS AND ACTIONS?
AND HOW AM I TO ACQUIRE ANY OF THESE THINGS?
ALL OF THESE THINGS?
TO BE IN MY FAVOR?
I MUST DO WHATEVER THIS…THING…THIS SINGULAR AND ALL AND EVER POWER THING
WANTS ME TO DO AT ANY TIME AND PLACE AND IN ANY SITUAION
I MUST SEEK OUT ITS WILLA ND LEARN TO DO IT
I MUST DO IT AND DO IT AS PERFECTLY AS POSSIBLE
AND KEEP TRYING UNTIL I GET IT RIGHT
AND IN ORDER TO DO THAT
I HAVE TO GIVE MYSELF TO THE THING
ALL OF MYSELF
ALL OF MY SELF
ALL AND EVERYTHING…
AND WHY NOT?
I EXIST ONLY BECAUSE OF THIS THING
AND I WANT TO CONTINUE TO EXIST
FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER…..
AND THIS SEEMS TO ME TO BE THE ONLY WAY TO DO IT
YES…IT IS SELFISH
BUT I CAN’T HELP IT
I WAS CREATED
AND I WANT TO CONTINUE TO DO AND TO BE SO
FOREVER AND EVER
AND OS ITURN TO THE ONE AND ONLY BEING THAT CAN ACCOM[LISH SUCH A THING
THE BEING THE THING
THAT CREATED ME IN THE FIRST PLACE…..
….THE ONE THAT CREATED ME IS THE ONE THAT OWNS ME.
THAT IS MY CREED…I SHALL NOT DETER FROM IT, NO MATTER WHAT…
WHATEVER I MAY GAIN OR LOSE IN THIS ONE, LITTEL LIFE….
I WILL TAKE UNTO MYSELF AND MY SELF
AS TO WHY IT IS AND WAS SO…
WHAT DID I DO?
WS THERE ANYTHING ELSE THAT I COULD HAVE DONE?
WAS IT ACTUALLY UP TO ME…AT ANYTIME?
I HAVE THOUGHT THESE THOUGHTS
AND HAVE DECIDED
I AM GOD IN ACTION AND DOING AND BEING
THIS CHARACTER THAT I AM IN GOD
IS GOD ACTING AS THE CHARACTER THAT I AM
BEING THIS CHARACTER…WANT TO ASSERT MYSELF…..HOW CAN I?
WHAT IS IT THAT I CAN POSSIBLY DO?
HOW SHALL I ACT?
I SEE GOD ACTING…NO WAY CAN I DO THAT…….YET…..
BUT I HAVE TO START…..I HAVE TO SIGN UP TAKE THE LESSONS
PRACTICE…..DO…BE….AS GOD WILLS…
BUT IF I WANT TO DO AND BE AS GOD IS
AS GOD WILLS
FOR ME TO BE
THAT THE CHARACTER THAT I AM THAT GOD PORTRAYS
BECOMES AN ACTOR THAT THE CHARACTER THAT GOD PRTRAYS AS BEING WHAT I AM
BUT WHAT BETTER WAY IS THERE
OTHER THAN TO ATTACH MYSELF TO GOD
COMPLETELY AND FULLY
ABSOLUTELY AND SUPREMELY AND ULTIMATELY
AS JOINED TOGETHER AS POSSIBLE…….
AND SO I WENT TO GOD WITH CHAINS IN MY HANDS
AND BEGGED TO BE GODS SLAVE
THAT GOD MAY DO WITH ME AS GOD WILLS TO DO
AND MAKE OF ME WHAT GOD WILLS ME TO BE
AND BEGGED TO CHAIN MYSELF AND MY SELF TO GOD
THAT I MAY BE WITH GOD ALL THE TIME AND EVERYWHERE
AND LOOK AT GOD AND SEE GOD AND WATCH GOD AND OBSERVE GOD
AS GOD GOES ABOUT GOD’S BUSINESS
ASKING NOTHING IN RETURN
ONLY TO DO AS GOD WOULD HAVE ME DO
AND BE AS GOD WOULD HAVE ME BE
IN SPITE OF MYSELF
AND I TOLD GOD TO SLAP THE SHIT OUT OF ME IF IT WAS DEEMED NECESSARY
IN ORDER TO MAKE ME DO AS I SHOULD
AND GOD SMILED AND LAUGHED
AND TOOK THE CHAINS IN HAND
AND SAID TO ME:
“WE SHALL SEE WHAT WE SHALL SEE.”
I LOVE GOD
MORE THAN ANYTHING
THE THING THAT MADE ME IS THE THING THAT OWNS ME
IT WANTS ME TO BE PERFECT AS IT IS PERFECT
BUT IN ORDER TO DO THAT I MUST WITNESS GODS PERFECTION
AND UNDERSTAND IT
AND COMPREHEND IT
AND BE ABLE TO EMULATE IT
AND ACT LIKE IT ACTS
AND DO WHAT IT DOES
AND BE AS IT IS
AND I CAN ONLY DO THAT IF I AM WITH GOD ALL THE TIME AND EVERYWHERE
SERVANT S SLEEP WHEN THEY CAN
THEY DO AS THEY ARE TOLD AND EXPECT TO BE COMPENSATED FOR IT
I WANT ONLY TO LEARN SO THAT I MAY KNOW MY MASTER THAT CREATED ME
SERVANTS HAVE THEIR OWN WILLS
THEY WANT WHAT THEY WANT AND ATTEND TO THEIR OWN NEEDS AS BEST THEY CAN AND AS THEY SEE FIT
I CANNOT DO THAT
I DO NOT WANT WHAT I WANT
I DO NOT WANT TO WANT WHAT I WANT
I WANT WHAT GOD WANTS FOR ME AND IN ME AND THROUGH ME
THAT IS THE ONLY WAY FOR ME
I MUST GIVE MYSELF AND MY SELF UP TOTALLY TO THE WILL OF THE ONE THAT CREATED ME
SO THAT I MAY BE AS THE ONE THAT CREATED ME IS
I AM PINNOCHIO
WANTING TO BE A REAL BOY
BUT I AM POOR AND WEAK AND NEEDY AND STUPID
AND I KNOW IT
AND I DON’T WANT TO BE THAT
I WANT TO BE LIKE MY MASTER THAT CREATED ME IS…
LIKE A DOG I FOLLOW GOD
LEARNING THE LANGUAGE
OBSERVING THE SIGNS
ALWAYS HOPING THAT GOD IS HAPPY WITH ME
A PAT ON THE HEAD
TO SLEEP NEXT TO GOD
AT GODS FEET
TO WAG MY TAIL IN DREAMS OF GOD
TO AWAKE WHEN GOD AWAKES
AND MOVE WHEN GOD MOVES
AND GO WHERE GOD GOES
THIS IS MY JOY……..
I AM A DOG
BUT I AM GOD’S DOG
I AM A SLAVE
AND I AM GOD’S SLAVE
AND I AM COME HERE
AS GOD WILLS
AND FIND MYSELF A SLAVE TO WAGES
AND I AM SICK AND I AM TIRED
AND I AM SICK AND TIRED
OF BEING A SLAVE TO OTHERS
AND STRUGGLING TO BE FREE FROM THIS SYSTEM OF THINGS
AND SO I FIGHT
THESE MANIFEST ILLUSIONS
BORN OF THE MINDS AND HEARTS OF BEINGS THAT CARE NOT FOR MY MASTER
AND I HOWL FOR MY MASTER…..
AND SEARCHED FOR MY MASTER
AND CRIED OUT
AND FOUGHT TO BE FREE FROM THIS SYSTEM OF THINGS THAT ARE NOT THINGS
BUT ARE LIES WITHIN LIES SURROUNDED BY LIES WITHIN LIES
AND I AM SURROUNDED BY OTHER CREATIONS
OTHERS LIKE ME
AND OTHERS NOT LIKE ME
AND WITHIN THE OMNIPOTENT AND OMNIPRESENT LIGHT OF THE ONE CREATOR AND MASTER OF ALL AND EVERYTHING
I HAVE FOUND DARKNESS
THEY HAVE EMBRACED THEIR OWN WILLS INSTAED OF THE WILL OF GOD
AND HAVE COVERED THEMSELVES IN THEIR OWN THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS
AWAY FROM GOD
HIDING FROM GOD
THEY HAVE DONE WHAT THEY THINK AND FEEL THAT THEY SEE GOD DOING AND BEING
THEY ARE CREATING
CREATING FOR THEMSELVES THE WORLDS THEY WANT TO LIVE IN…..
AND I HAVE SEEN SOME TURN ON OTHERS
AND MAKES OTHERS SLAVES TO THEMSELVES
AND I CRY AND LAUGH AT THE SAME TIME
HOW TEMPORARY IS THEIR TIME OF THEIR PERSONAL ILLUSION AND DELUSION OF VICTORY!
AND WHO HAVE THEY CONQUERED?
SURELY THEY HAVE NOT CONQUERED THEMSELVES?
HAVE THEY CONQUERED THE LIGHT OF GOD WITHIN THEM?
THEY THINK SO
THEY FEEL SO
THERE IT IS……….WITHIN THEM
AND ALL AROUND THEM
AND THEY FEAR IT
BECAUSE THEY CAN NOT EXTINGUISH IT!
THEY WANT DARKNESS WHERE GOD IS LIGHT!
THEY WANT FEAR WHERE GOD IS LOVE!
THEY WANT DEATH WHERE GOD IS LIFE!
WILL THEY WANT UNCREATION WHERE GOD IS CREATION?
I KNOW NOT
IT IS ALL
TOO MUCH FOR ME
AND I RETREAT TO THE BOSOM OF MY MASTER WHOM I HAVE FOUND AGAIN…..
AFTER BEING LOST IN THIS WORLD FOR SO LONG
AND MY MASTER SAYS DO THIS
AND I DO IT
AND MY MASTER SAYS DO THAT
AND I DO IT
ACT A FOOL…….AND LEARN HOW TO ACT…..AND WHY…..
AND I LEARN
NOW I AM HERE
AND WHAT COMES WILL COME
I WILL DO AS GOD SAYS DO
AND BE AS GOD SAYS BE
THAT IS ALL I WANT
GOD LOVES ME
I LOVE GOD
WE ARE FRIENDS
GOD CALLS ME SON
I CALL GOD FATHER
WE ARE ALWAYS TOGETHER
LIKE AN OLD MARRIED COUPLE STILL DEEPLY IN LOVE
BUT I WANT TO GIVE TO GOD
A SYMBOL OF MY LOVE AND GRATITUDE
THANKS AND APPRECIATION
FOR ALL THAT GOD HAS DONE AND DOES FOR ME
AND ALL THAT GOD MEANS TO ME
AND ALL I HAVE IS MYSELF AND MY SELF
AND SO I GIVE ALL OF IT
LOVINGLY AND WILLINGLY
AND CALL MY SELF AND MYSELF GODS SLAVE
WANTING ONLY TO DO WHAT GOD WOULD HAVE ME DO
AND BE AS GOD WOULD HAVE ME BE
OUT OF LOVE
OUT OF MY OWN WILL
FOR THAT IS THE EXTENT OF THE WORTH OF MY WILL…AT LEAST, TO ME…..
THIS ALL THAT I AM
I AM THAT I AM
AND THAT IS WHAT GOD MADE ME TO DO AND TO BE
I AM NOTHING WITHOUT GOD
THERE IS NOTHING WITHOUT GOD
HOW CAN I NOT GIVE ALL THAT I AM TO GOD?
BUT THAT’S ME
THIS IS MY EXPERIENCE WITH THE THING
AND THAT IS THAT