okay…..

Sigh

Ok…..put one letter after the other……..i can do this………….

Move forward………..

It’s been awhile, I know.  I’ve been………inside, within, working………..

The past eight weeks or so have been…….something………

No October surprise, or November surprise, or Thanksgiving surprise and now Christmas is here…

MERRY CHRISTMAS, btw….Source and CM Bless you all.  PAPA BLESS US ALL, EVERYONE!  MAMA BLESS US ALL, EVERYONE!  SONNY BLESS US ALL, EVERYONE!  TRINITY BLESS US ALL, EVERYONE!  CHRIST MICHAEL ATON BLESS US ALL, EVERYONE!  SOURCE OF SOURCES, GRANDMA/GRANDPA BLESS US ALL, EVERYONE!

Thanks you all for everything.  I am honored to be with you all here, in these times……..

Okay…enough of that………

I generally get ticked off every holiday season……it starts right after Thanksgiving and lasts until sometime in January……..just another cycle of more bullshit to endure and fight against….when will it end?

The middle of November came and went….and I ranted and raved in the meeting like never before, a real tantrum I had…….and the reply I got from my beloved Boss was “Don’t you trust me?”

Well…that ended that….all I could do was smile and laugh….i saw what He was doing and there was nothing I could say.  Nothing else mattered except the Will of The One and this was it and I was just playing my part and being overly self-interested, after all.  What the fuck do my hopes and expectations mean in the face of the One Reality?

Expectation leads to disappointment……..so it has been said.  It’s all I can do to keep up with and perform maintenance on myself………a perpetual work in progress………

And so testing continues…if that can be the word for it…it seems like more……..inexplicable malfunctions and breakdowns have been happening all over the house and I realized someone was trying to tell me something….the best I could do was making lemonade out of lemons………..

But it placed me in a period of evaluation and reevaluation and inner analyzing and clearing out and cleaning up and rearranging and remembering and going over things I haven’t thought of in ages……

My life has been passing before my eye……oh God…did I do that?  I did that….why did I do that?  How did that happen and that and that and this and where and for what and what caused this and that and what effect did any of it have as far as directing and redirecting the course of this journey that has seen me through all of it only to arrive here and where the hell am I, anyway?

Did it really have to all be this way and could it have been any other way and if and if not and so………but this is it and I have to be here because here is where I am now………..and nothing else would have done or would do or will do………

And does it matter what I want and what do I want?  Do I know enough to know what to really want?  Why do I want anything?  Am I too stupid to know what to want on my own?  Definitely.  Except for that one thing that I must want, need to want and makes all other wants seem stupid and unnecessary….more about that soon…….

The Lord is my shepherd. I shall not want.

But how can one not want…something?  But the Torah says something different…….at least the one I have…….[hey, know your enemy, I always say…]

The Lord is my shepherd.  I shall not lack.

There is a clear difference.   Maybe they just don’t want the goyim to want anything but what they tell them……..considering the circumstances and all……….

Yet what is important among the things that I perceive myself to lack or am lacking in?

I can scream for wealth all I want, but that all seems to be some sort of fuzzy catch 22 that involves a lot of ‘why’ and ‘for what’ and could break you easier that it could make you and all that….besides…..we’re still here and the bills are….basically paid… and trust and faith in God through the kindness and support of others as His vehicle of expression has been a blessing I can’t deny and I am grateful without end for the help I’ve received and the Love of God within it….so thanks to all involved beyond measure…….

No…what I need is clarity…….i need deeper, higher, wider….more expansive consciousness from the source of all consciousness within the expression of consciousness that I AM………I need to make more room for that…….

So I’ve been spending the past several weeks in deep thought and contemplation……cleaning out the attic, the closet…..the basement………sitting in my little room of mirrors looking at myself from every angle and aspect……I am this and I am that, dog and unicorn, angel and beast…..cute little furry, cuddly beast….but beast nonetheless [smile]….madman, fool and prophet, creator of realities and subject of the realities I create………alien and human being……..and more………

I look up at the skies as it snows and know, grok….that each snowflake is God and each raindrop is God and every molecule and atom and quark and ultimaton in the holographic field of photonic consciousness that upholds the grid and field of experienced creation….is just that One Thing expressing Itself, experiencing Itself through the mechanisms that It has created to do so………

We are not just containers for souls, as some people, for some reason, woefully exclaim…as if it were some sort of punishment that takes away all the meaning they thought their life held……….nay……we are all vehicles of expression and we are expressing the Divine.

Oh you may love the idea or hate the idea.  You may flow with it to its fullest extent in you or you may resist and reject and fight it as best you can…….but you are that Divine Creature being expressed as you and that means that it is the same for all others around you and all things around you and there is no escape from that..it..It…IT is everywhere and IT is everything and that is that and there is nowhere to go and nothing you can do or be that can or will change that circumstance in any way, shape, fashion or form……..when even your rebellion is a means of expression, what can you do but surrender?  You can carry on for as long as you can in the way that you feel….as a means of expression…..you must…..but you and I both know that….as a means of expression….that can all change in the blink of an eye…or less time…time being relative in perception of experience…….and there you are…..knowing the part you played and play to the fullest of realization  and recognition……try not to scream….or do, if such expression makes you feel better……….

God’s will is done in all things and now…….there is pressure…..the experience is changing into something……heretofore unimaginable……never before experienced by the mechanism of consciousness that has been expressed on this planet……..it is time……..some are having a hard time with the fact that it is time and are barring the gates and loading all available weapons……….but you cannot fight what is within you.  You cannot win against a thing that owns you, having created you for the purpose of expression in order to demonstrate Itself through experience……..you cannot fight such a thing and win.  You can only surrender to Its Will because that’s the only thing there is…if you see the reality of the situation for what it is………THERE IS ONLY THE ONE THING.  ALL THINGS MANIFEST BY THE ONE THING WITHIN THE ONE THING ARE SUBJECT TO THE WILL OF THE ONE THING FOR CONTINUED EXISTENCE AND THERE IS NO EXCAPING THE FACT THAT ALL IS AS THE ONE THING WILLS IT ALL TO BE……

So there are, has been and will be those that seek to do the will of The One Thing and those that rebel against it….hey, welcome to the realm of duality within the unity of the One Thing for the sake of experience in expression.  This is so that, as The One Thing desires to create beings that are like unto Itself…It will have the company and friendship and family and love and devotion…all in unity of will, ONE WILL [guess whose…] of beings that have been tried and tested, evaluated and passed, that are not found to be lacking in consciousness to the point and level where they are responsible in their strength and knowledge and hold such power as they have been given to do and be anything….HAVING EARNED THAT RIGHT THROUGH EXPERIENCE…….and yet, even then….the journey still evolves…….infinite and eternal………

[This is where all the members of the choir and the regular staff workers and personnel that been working diligently for and with and in the light can take a break, grab a drink or a smoke or a sandwich or something while I talk to the people hiding in the shadows in the corner of the room thinking that we never knew they were there spying on us………we’ll meet again later at the next post which will be soon…right now the little shadow spies must be given a message to take back to their failing and flailing masters……since they’d rather be slaves to them than be slaves to God….go figure……….and someone please bring me back an amaretto mocha and a nice toasted English muffin?  Oh!  Yeah!  I saw that on the counter!  Raisins and cranberries sounds real nice….thanks!]

 

Ok…….listen up little shadow chumps….choices have to be made and you have to make them before your time is lost for good and forever………….i know, I know…you guys don’t give a shit about me or anything I have to say………just…humor me this once….okay?

 

You, who fear such power, fear it because it is held over you and through you and you want to be already, as God is….and none of us can do and be that fully……we all have beginnings…we are created beings and things……THAT WHICH IS MASTER OVER ALL HAS NO BEGINNING AND CAN NEVER, EVER END AND IT IS THE ONLY BEING THAT QUALIFIES AND THERE CAN BE NO OTHER.

Yet you do not want to be slaves to God…and apparently, you more so reject being slaves of Christ….and because you hate the Father, you hate the Son even more, for it is He whom the Father sent to you to show you truth and reveal the error of your ways…….and still you reject light and seek the darkness of the shadow….but there is no shadow without light and the being that casts that shadow is but the body of creation in The Supreme Being.  That body only grows and evolves and expands in light and as it does so, the shadow diminishes.  The day truly comes, even for this place, where there will be no place for a shadow to exist, for light will permeate all and everywhere.

Then what shall be done with you, whose minds are shadowmind?  The new creations of the outer, evolving realms await you!  You can have a clean and clear expression to start over with and that will be that.  You may, perhaps, find your way to the shadow once again….and there shall be God The Ultimate, evolving in light……….and maybe you will try again….and there will be God The Absolute in the realms of Its evolvement………or….you could be Gods in your own right by then….having been tried and tested and found without lack of any aspect of pure Divine Consciousness within you…..and then ye shall see what you are blind to right now…it is better to live forever as a slave to God in Light, than to die and be uncreated in the darkness of fear.  Though you may have conquered whole galaxies, as some have, the end is always the same……it ends….and there you were and then you were gone and the life that was within you went on without you…………Ye have been offered  life, eternal and infinite, and all that comes with it.  But how can you have what you cannot comprehend?  You refuse to do the work of God and so cannot receive the reward.  You have had your reward in darkness and have already served yourselves.  What is left for you to have?  When you realize that The Boss is The BOSS and that you gave your all for a simple department manager – who no longer exists within the company structure, btw…- you will have choices to make…….follow the one you pledged allegiance to, leave the company, for good, thank you and goodbye and oh well and all that…….or recognize that your department was allowed to function because it suite The Boss to let it do so but that’s all over now and are you willing to see the situation for what it is and accept reassignment while keeping the perks of promotion that comes with being a good employee….work your way back up the ladder the right way this time…………

But you ones call that slavery even though this is, in no way, a mickey mouse operation. [subtle wink/nod here]

Okay……enough of that…….now this……

You cannot define the actions of God by human definitions.  This is why you must throw away the box.  The box does you no good anymore.  You are trying to negotiate a transition into a new world that is beyond your experience.  It’s only boundaries are those of your imagination….well…maybe not YOUR imagination…you guys seem to be lacking in that department.  Either that or the things that you imagine are all tempered by your fear.  You fear the masses and so you fear giving them freedom and truth and the responsibility that goes with it.  You say they can’t handle the truth [smile], but they can.  You say they can’t handle abundant and endless supply and prosperity……but they can.  They can handle equality without status quo or elitism.  They can handle life without the need for competition, only the need to provide the best of service for the sake of all involved.  Self-interest can be defined as being interested in others.  Self-service can be about serving others.

You guys are still fighting over resets and who will control what when ‘the event’ finally comes……..guess what…….you’ve got it all wrong.

You’ve forgotten one, tiny, teensy weensy lil’ ol’ detail…………………here comes the judge……….

Actually, the judge is already here and Divine Adjudication will be carried out for every individual on the planet.  You’ve been told this and know it but your minds seems to disconnect in the comprehending of it……..you cannot do this while you are still thinking in terms of over 7 billion people that must be unplugged from the matrix of your making.  If for no other reason than the fact that you don’t really want to unplug them.

You’re willing to make a good show of it….take out a few connections here and there….but you’re still looking for a way to stay in control and this is your fundamental lack of reason and reality.

YOU ARE NOT IN CONTROL AND YOU HAVE NEVER BEEN IN CONTROL.  YOU HAVE BEEN ALLOWED TO OPERATE ONLY BECAUSE IT SUITS THE DIVINE ITS PURPOSE OF DEMONSTRATION FOR THE SAKE OF EXPRESSION IN EXPERIENCE.

YOU ARE ONLY PROVING THAT THIS WHOLE THING IS BEYOND YOU.

 

[the following paragraph is my personal opinion = just sayin’]

By now you should have dismantled the fiat currency apparatus of global central banking and quarantined the headquarters in Israel, The City of London, The Vatican, Washington D.C. and shut down all stock exchanges.  You should have arrested all operative leaders and workers of the global domination front, from every side and faction.  Announcements should’ve been made and open, above board and transparent cooperation with the galactic forces of the spiritual hierarchy should be well underway already.  Heck, you could’ve just declared a global jubilee, given every person on the planet an unlimited bank account through your own favored, electronic means- just as an interim measure, and hauled out the free energy device and other high tech that will have to be mass produced, thus creating new industries and employment.  I’m sure billions of adults won’t mind working a few hours a day to help produce things and keep themselves busy as they watch the world improve….no more theft  and all….maybe even the drug trade will become a moot point…they’ll eventually wean themselves off of it anyway…a good life without such stress and frustration goes a long way in creating healthy and balanced minds and hearts and bodies….there’s more….but I’m sure you get it some of it by now…..but that’s me and I’m insane, as you have always declared…….smile……

[and now back to the facts and facts of appearances]

Note:  You will not be able to maintain the status quo that you are used to or desire.

Most of what you envision will be a moot point as adjudication moves forward.

However much you may want to try to jockey for position in hopes of improving your chances…..as some of you seem to be doing.  You are only succeeding in giving lip service to something that is vitally important to the future welfare of this planet and its peoples and all of us, including you, deserve better.  Just who do you think you’re fooling with this smoke and mirrors one trick pony show?  You are fooling less people by the minute and you have never fooled God.

Surrender to The One Mind and Will that is greater than all of you and us and all….put together….and make way for Its Way, okay?

 

Well that should do it for you guys today….thanks for being here…always a pleasure………

Oh…..my snack!….thanks!

Ahhhhhhhhhhhh…coffee…………sigh……..

Okay…..i gotta go upstairs for a quick minute and see what they want me to do with this thing and I’ll be right back……..tell them to meet me in the lounge…might as well be comfy………thanks……..

 

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5 Responses to okay…..

  1. Ken says:

    Thank the Lord for OUR new year . …… and welcome the year of OUR LORD JESUS CHRIST …….. and ALL the hosts of the Heavens . Glory be to the FATHER in ALL our names . AMEN………………………………………………………………………….

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  2. Sandra Vazquez says:

    Merry Christmas Kibo & Company. This message tells me how close we’re getting each day and that’s good. Personally, I’ll be glad to see the end of 2013 with all its “tests”. After the pain comes the joy! I hope it’s the same for you and all our brothers and sisters. God bless us everyone.

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  3. Brian says:

    Twenty-third Psalm….

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  4. Elaine says:

    Merry CHRISTMAS to you and yours Kibo. I thought that was you ranting and raving at the meeting. I had to stop my own rant just to see who else was doing the same thing!! AND, like you I got the same reaction!!! Go figure!! I too have been in a period of “evaluation/reevaluation” and boy it’s been a tough one. Still one has to scour and scrub till the shine comes through. I especially love what you said to the “shadow chumps”. I hope they listen; even if you reach one I think you’ve done wonders!!! On that note, I’ll say: Have a WONDERFUL DAY, HAPPY HOLIDAYS, GOD BLESS YOU AND YOURS and may 2014 bring the PEACE WE SO DESPERATELY NEED and WANT! Hope you enjoyed your amaretto mocha! Think I’ll go have one too! 🙂
    Love & Hugs, Elaine

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  5. James K. says:

    Great work. Know the feelings.

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