REALLY? OVER THERE? SIGH…..OKAY………..

REALLY? OVER THERE? SIGH…..OKAY………..

You don’t have to read this one….it’s okay….i understand……..today it’s just me…….
Oh, we’ll get another one up with Grandpa soon enough and the others are in the wings, on the couch, so to speak….and the conversation continues……it’s always going on…….and there’s a certain joy in that but with all of the things in life that one decides to be concerned about, what to keep up seems chief among them……Ask any man if he’s keeping it up and see what he thinks he’s supposed to be keeping up and I can bet you that nine times out of ten, it ain’t THE CONVERSATION…….and that tells you more than you need or maybe want to know about the state of consciousness on this planet……….
That so few of us are even trying to have that Conversation speaks to why we are in the state of war that we are in. Even though the outcome is already a foregone conclusion, that doesn’t matter to those at the far pendulum swing of the one percent of the population that is as dark of soul as we, on this end of the swing, are of light. Mind you, all of that is buffered by the ascending and descending levels of light and dark that move inwards to the vast majority of souls that seem to center around that perfect gray spot of ignorant bliss………lucky fuks……..it’s said that what you don’t know can’t hurt you and that may be true to some extent…but, on the other hand, it can’t help you, either and therein lies the rub.
So here we are…..and I’m doing my best to be as observant as possible in whatever directions I can handle at once. I’ve yet to be able to see on that 720 degree level that I’m aiming at, for now, and I’m told that I will never be able to see the future clearly simply because I’m already full of my own ideas and concepts about it…..’You have expectations.’ Is the way it was initially put to me, and I admit that it is hard to not want certain things to manifest. Not that that’s a bad thing…we have to be able to form clear concepts and values to work on in order to make them manifest down here… you have to be able to picture and be the thing in your own consciousness in order to pull it down from there and make it work around you. But if you’re trying to be someone that can see what’s coming without considering the near infinite amount of factors and influences that make what’s coming…come….then you have to be able to just jump ahead to that intended point up or down the line and see what’s what and make sure it’s all on the same track that you’re on……….and i….i have expectations…….seems that I can’t help myself.
I figure that I’m stuck with trying to be on the right train on the right track at the right time and that means that I have to create of myself a certain….thing……I dunno, an energy, a frequency, a vibration, a point, a pulse, a wave…all of the above…at once and at the same time….so I can be…what? Where? Light in light…sounds great to me, put it in the cart………love in love…yeah, that too…….hey, all that’s hard enough….sigh…what to mix, what to separate…what to stir….what to shake……Dabi….kiboDabi….filtered, not poured…….is that a new filter? Maybe I should take it injected….hmmmmmm…..assuming I can trust the bartender….whose joint is this, anyway? Am I in the right place? Where’s the Boss, the Owner of this establishment?
Oh
There you are….Good….i thought it was you….glad to be here…at least I’m in the right place……..

Got a moment? We really need to talk……….obviously, you are aware that the place needs a complete makeover….perhaps a demolition and replacing? Yes, no? Rehabbing? Maybe? Is this going to be a DIY job or are you bringing in professional help? Both? Ahhhh…….Are you closing it down or working around the patrons? Oh! Putting the patrons to work, are we?
You are aware that there are some that don’t like the new blueprints? Trying go off with plans of their own? Some are just too lazy to lift a finger…some are just out cold…..one too many…or less…I suppose……..you have all that covered? Good!
Oh…I see….already started on the foundation, have we? Clearing out the basement….shoring up the walls? Oh, new walls…new floors, new ceilings…..new lights….more lights…..throwing out all the old supplies? New supplies coming in? Oh! Already arriving as we speak…..no heirlooms…anything of sentimental value worth keeping? Not from the basement…ah…okay……..what about them…….THEM….the ones that moved in down there….ah! got a nice place for them…all airy and light….fresh air and sunshine? But……oh…they’ll get used to it….will they? Nevermind….we’ll get to them later…….
I’m looking for work on the main floor here…….clearing people out of the way? Getting the workers together? Oh……need to raise the roof off……I see….that would make it easier…..it’s always a pain when you’re moving in stuff that’s too big for the doors and the windows…….so….getting a new roof afterwards? Open air concept? What…no rain or snow or cold? New weather? Oh…better weather…well, that should be something……and the patrons? Oh……..help work or leave……well, that’s okay for people that have run up a tab…but what about the rest of us that have been paying customers?
Help work or leave…….right…….tell me…are these paying positions? We’ll see? Maybe later…after the work is done? Well….that’ll thin out the herd, don’t you think? Yes? I thought so……..
So
What do you want me to do………………………….?

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3 Responses to REALLY? OVER THERE? SIGH…..OKAY………..

  1. Brian says:

    The Gateway To The Stars Is Through You….
    chew on that for a bit…..

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  2. Marayah says:

    Grat piece Kibo 😀 Spot on, love your metaphors. Yes, yes I recognize that feeling… you run to and fro grabbing tools asking for directions, sometimes you observe and figure out where to put your next effort, other times you sit down and wait for ideas to come to you. At times the dust gets in your eyes and you are blinded for a little while. And then comes the reassuring moments when the owner or one of the leaders of the team show up and pass some new instructions or show a few plans….it is exciting, challenging, awesome and glorious! ❤

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  3. Brian says:

    i feel ya brother…i feel ya!

    ….for some strange reason my mind just flashed to that part in The Shining….where Mr Torrance is at the bar…remember? He’s talkin to Lloyd the bartender….Lloyd says, you’ve always been the grounds keeper here, Mr Torrance…

    loose associations..what can i say?!

    filtered not poured…love it! lmao…

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