conversation that led up to MAMA’s message……with apologies

thought you might like to see the beginning of what led to that message……and also to apologize for being such a burden…seems like this has been all i have been able to do…..sigh…

all i ask is that, if anyone does decide to send something, please make it no more than you can comfortably and easily afford……i don’t want anyone sacrificing of themselves for my sake….and it has never been anything that is expected or that you have to do….YOU DON’T HAVE TO DO ANYTHING BUT EVOLVE SPIRITUALLY! Don’t ever let anything get in the way of reducing the perceived distance between you and SOURCE to the truth that you are each other in all ways and things…

….and you can always pray for me…….prayer does do wonders……and it’s free…… kibo

so…here’s the lead up to the message:

There’s a bum [me] standing on a corner, naked, wearing a sandwich sign that states: “Will work for salvation”

God[ATON} pulls up in a pick-up truck and tells him to get in.

God asks the man, “Why are you doing this? You’ve always worked for salvation.”

The man replies…..”I have everything but enough money….i had God, Love and light…….but I decided I didn’t have enough of all that, either……salvation seemed a long ways off. Eventually I decided that I wasn’t saved at all and that all of my efforts have just been a small step in a long journey and I fell to my knees and cried because of my imperfections….after a long, dark night of the soul…I decided to rise and keep on going instead of just falling to the ground and laying there waiting to turn into dust and be gone with the wind……….and so I continue, but now I am naked for love and light are no substitute for pants and a warm coat………..

“But people give you money….” Said God

“Yes….and I am eternally grateful to them and pray they never give more than they can afford to for my sake. But I have become a burden to these my brothers and sisters and am ashamed that I only have words to offer in return. Things actually looked like they were going to get better….there was hope….then the storm came and when it was over…..well…..here I am, looking for salvation, as you can see….”

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But you already received salvation………’

“Then why am I butt naked…..no one is free or saved who is drowning in debt……..i’m wading through bullshit here and it just keeps getting deeper……..perhaps I can be given wings so that I can rise above it and fly to my goal……

“Perhaps…Do you have any idea what your goal is?”

“ Once I thought that it was perfection….but that seems too far away to care about right now…nevermind…it doesn’t matter anymore…….you can drop me off anywhere…..here’s good.”

“Leaving so soon? Don’t like My company?”

“Hey, I love you. But I should burden you, too? Everyone’s been bending over backwards for me and what have I given in return? More of the same? Please……….i can’t save myself…I can’t help myself….i’m helping others to do better……..really? I’m a bum…..however smart or stupid, right or wrong I may be….by the standards of the world, I am materially, bankrupt…..that makes me a bum….i can’t even pay a system lawyer to tell everyone for me that I can’t pay them……..that makes me a bum….i’m tired of asking for money from others………You won’t do anything directly……..so…..fuck it…what the fuck can I do? Get a better job? More of the same…..same as it ever was……thanks for everything, I love you, I apologize for all the trouble………….”

“Did I say I was dropping you off? You’re my brother, for God’s sake….”

“ I am just a human being whatever it is I am being. All that Michael Son stuff holds no meaning if I can’t do anything with it……There’s no proof of that, by the way…just a matter of my saying so doesn’t make it so….i can’t get a thing done…..can’t even take decent care of the dogs…….my life here has been reduced to needing money and preferring to receive it from you or PAPA directly instead of burdening any further, these my brothers and sisters in this life here and now………..YOU make sure that I get what I need, but I can never get what I want when it comes to that…..i have God, have love, have light…I want a boatload of money to do what I want to do and that’s not happening the way I’d like it to so surely it’s not up to me…or maybe it is and I just don’t have the strength or knowledge to do anything about it…..i’m not just a bum, I’m a lazy bum…..an embarrassment to the family business…among other things……”

“You need to talk to MAMA…..”

“I’ve talked to MAMA…”

“Not on virtual paper you haven’t……….come on…….”

We drive to the house and go in……..Others are there…..but I won’t go into that for now…suffice it to say that I am given a robe to replace the sign and led into the office area in the back…..i am placed in an office room that looks just like PAPA’s and told to wait. I am left alone…..a feminine voice comes from the room beyond the door in the back of the office……She says to come in…so I do……

Now, this is the inner sanctum of sanctums…..in PAPA’s bathroom….yes it’s a bathroom and there’s a bath in it…no toilet…PAPA don’t take no shit and, apparently, neither does MAMA….anyway…the tub is in the exact middle of what seems to be an infinitely large room….just like PAPA’s….except in PAPA’s room there are endless mirrors reflecting all the personalities of PAPA that are the living, created and born, ascending and descending, ensouled and intelligent beings of creation…and everything else, as well….like every blade of grass and grain of sand and raindrop and so on and forth…in all of creation…..HE is each and every one of them and they are Him….whether they know it or not….that applies to you, the reader, as well….you are, literally, God being you…you are your aspect of God, all you are, is Him being Himself as you and if you were truly yourself you would get that….but this world doesn’t want you to be yourself, the system of things wants you to fake it for the sake of getting along and complying and conforming and staying out of trouble and even surviving………so when you are truly yourself they immediately throw more bullshit at you in order to cover you up in shit and get you to stop trying to stay out of shit……and that’s what you get for worshipping a bull…more bullshit……..anyway……

MAMA has a tub too…….but there are no mirrors….just a whole, vast, panoramic view of everything….and I mean everything…all times and places and things and so on and so forth……and there are endless….bubbles…floating around that show all interaction….anything that interacts with another thing or number of other things…is shown from every perspective….one bubble to a perspective…..yet the whole is shown clearly without obstacle and yet the seemingly infinite number of bubbles are just as plain to see and they all connect to form the whole and yet the whole is more than the sum of its parts……and that’s MAMA’s room…….

And she is soaking in a bubble bath…………and tells me to get in……so I do …….nice…..warm….lovely……sigh……..

We soak for a little while and then She says to me……

“Why you actin’ like such a bitch?”

“Fuck that” I reply…”If I look and feel and sound an act like a bitch then so be it…I’m sick of this shit and I dunno, it’s just the way I am and I’m tired of blaming others for my own shit and I can’t do anything about my own shit because I’m too busy trying to deal with this bull’s shit and that bullshit is deep and heavy and all the help in the world isn’t enough….i need YOU to take care of this shit for me because I got nothin’ but words and a desire to ascend and that don’t pay the bills for anybody and I’m tired of being a slave, yet I am still a slave…because I need the money and never have enough to get out of this bullshit…….people help but they have their own shit to deal with. Who am I to ask help from them when I should be helping them to rise above it all and who am I to even try to teach what I cannot do?

So fuck it…..i’m done. I’ll just keep struggling on and working like a slave until I die and hope for the best possible outcome and pray that I can take decent care of my loved ones….since it all is on my back…..too much weight even for a unicorn…and it’s not like I can fly….so please and thank you and I love you and sorry for all my shit on top of it all…I’m doing the best I can with what I’ve got and It’s not much to speak of in either department or case…….either way, I’m a failure…either as a Michael Son or a human being………until I can achieve or accomplish something worthwhile…..i’m just a naked bum on the corner with a sign and a cup in his hand and there’s no money in it….what little I get or have gets eaten up by the bull…..it’s all I can do to keep it from shitting in my cup…at least I’ve been able to save that…so anytime you want to fill it up with whatever….you let me know…as long as it comes from you…I’m good. Even if I stay poor and weak and needy and stupid….i’ll always know that I got something directly from You…so thanks for that……I remember Boston….i remember the house…but at some point I have to get out of debt and that’s not happening and I’m done….to a crisp…burned out….don’t give a shit anymore….You’re not saving the world anytime soon…so…what the fuck can I do…what the fuck am I supposed to do?”

“Stand up for your right!”

“Stand up to who….You or them?”

“ME?”

“Yes YOU!” who do I stand up to? If if stand up to them, it just gets worse…and things are bad enough…all I can do is fight online…..even that costs money….not to mention living…..want me to do more? Costs more money. Want music…need more money….videos, money…anime/money, a company…money…create our own thing….money….fight back……money……server//money….artwork, t=shirts, cds, dvds, blue ray…….grants, helping others….money…….

If you save the world without further delay…no problem……..passover/easter is coming….never a better time to be found this year…….IF there’s not another round of delays……again….really…again……….my boots ain’t got no straps…..i know you want me to be strong, be a human being a man human being what I am……all I can tell you is…….it’s all I can do to act good and try to be a good actor…..the rest is beyond my doing without certain tools, weapons and resources available……c’mon……I’ve never even seen a fleet ship up close or been in one or been able to have a 3d face to face with anyone that could give me a better way to help out or at least give me an experience that would settle it all for me in good faith….fuck if anyone else believes me…I would know and that’s all I would need…but that’s selfishness on my part…I get that…so fuck it……something will come up and happen and help out…it always does and we’ll be able to keep scraping by…but at least we’ll still be going and I thank you and PAPA for that…so thank you MAMA very much. I do love you dearly and wish that I could do better for both our sakes…but I got nothing left. I do love you and hate letting you down….but that’s on me and is me, as well…so……..just let me do what I gotta do to take care of what I gotta take care of, which is what is right in front of my face…like a boxer I’m too slow to hit back and too tired to dodge……..and I’ll just rope-a-dope it here in the corner until the bell rings…which seems to be taking forever….but that may just be me….since I’m so fucking punch drunk beat up….well….that’s how it feels…so sorry for that…..thanks…love ya….appreciate all the help…wish I could do better…..i ain’t got it…I just ain’t got it and I’m tired of trying to get it and failing…how many times? See? So fuck the bullshit…burn it away, suck it up is what I have to do and it still tastes like bullshit….and I’m sick of bullshit…but it seems to be all I can afford since I’m covered in it….like pretty much everybody else……..shit stinks to high heaven…but what can I do? I’m ill prepared and know it and don’t care anymore…fine…it’s my own fault…just…please…if you guys are going to talk with me at all…make it real and tell me the truth so, at least, I can get that right and pass that along…for whatever it’s worth….if nothing else, let me have that…..i wasn’t lying and I told the truth as You gave it to me and You gave it to me and that’s that…..so yes, that’s right…I, at least, want to know the truth about things, everything, but as much as I can handle and then some….advice and instruction would be very helpful, if you please or have time….and yes, no….i can’t give up my bad habits……I smoke and drink and have a terrible diet and don’t exercise…I know that…and I’m too stressed and tired and pissed off to change all that so I fully expect to have to pay for that and I know it and right now, I’ve got nothing to pay with but my own life and you can have it to do with as it pleases you, if you want it…I give it to you…it’s all I have…..i want you to have it…even if I were rich and things were going perfectly, I’d want you to have it because such a set of circumstances wouldn’t exist in my life unless you had me well in hand to do your will as best I can….i’m with you but this is all I am and I can’t be’s no more and this seems to be all I can do…so……whatever you may think or feel about me…I am what I am and that isn’t going to change anytime too soon without a real process or event or both happening….and that’s too much to hope for as far as I can tell…thanks for all the help and support up to now…please don’t stop…it’s all I can do to hold on now. If things get any worse…well…..nevermind……you know already and it’s not something that I want to write down…..i’m on my knees to you begging for I don’t know what because I realize that I don’t know what’s good for me except doing your will and I don’t have the strength or presence of mind or heart to do that as perfectly as I want to or would like to or love to…I am not my self if I am truly a Michael Son and if not…well….as a human…truly I suck… but I’m tired of sucking bullshit but see or have no way to find my way out of this bullshit and rise above it…..every time I’m out, they drag me back in……Godfather movie…you know…..but I’m no Godfather…or Godmother either…..ok…enough…thanks for listening….i will try, somehow, to do better as time goes by and hope I can learn and do and be fast enough to save my own way of life…….PAPA bless you always and may YOU bless Papa as well…I love you both as one….thank you for everything….love Ya MA! Cya soon!

I get up to leave….

“Sit down….”

I ease back down into the swirling bubbles of the tub……

“One….I’m not your Father……watch your language with me.

Two…don’t you want to hear what I have to say?”

“not really……when we are young and ignorant, like babies…you nurture and coo and give and feed and wean and change diapers…..when we get over a certain spiritual age…..and can walk on our own two feet, you have us go out to prove ourselves in the field……..if we don’t measure up to your….sense of where we should be…you put a foot up our…well…light a flame either in our hearts or our rear ends…whatever is deemed necessary….and I gotta tell ya…….i’m all burned up back there…..my heart is warm and the flame’s still going….but…….you don’t give like PAPA does….you…..you got that tough love thing going on and while I understand….it just makes me want to stand on the corner with a cup and a sign not giving a hoot about it all anymore because this is what I am….a bum with a cup and a sign……’

“You are not a bum.”

“Prove it.”

“Then take a message and see if it is truth…”

“Given”

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thanks for reading

love you all

MAMA, PAPA AND CM ATON BLESS YOU ALWAYS IN ALL GOOD THINGS!!!

(-i-)

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18 Responses to conversation that led up to MAMA’s message……with apologies

  1. Marayah says:

    Dearest Barbara and Brian =)

    Thank you both, and yeah you are so right! I learned my lesson I guess to be more careful with my attemts to spread any info directly causing disbelief and the like. Insted I do the ‘inspire by mentioning a few thoughts to contemplate’ just as you said, Brian =) I know I was out there too soon, but so many times they said the ‘NOW’ moment had come and it seems difficult to know when to tell anyone, right? Oh yes, my husband is just the same as your wife, Brian and lately there has been a bit of struggle as to what we can do together, and I know he hates my ‘new’ habits, organic food, lacking mainstream tv interest etc. I guess he feels he has lost the gal he used to have fun with? I can’t drink alcohol any more either, makes me feel poisoned , so the steak, the wineglass and the action movie don’t appeal to me now, but they still do to him. Nebadonia’s ‘go outside and behold the wonders of nature’ and ‘be like a child again, curious, see all afresh’ idea do not appeal to him as they do to me. I love him but cannot reach… into his heart…. defense, irritation on his part -something like that! This is where we get to work with the light’n love against the wind I guess.
    But yes, I too trust that PAPA, ATON and all the others will make it all happen to the best outcome of all 😀
    God bless You Too!

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  2. Brian says:

    Marayah,

    I know this is for Kibo, but may I say please to leave those folks be…as hard as that may seem, it is the best course of action. I too struggle with getting the word out, but as you found out, you can create a mess for yourself to deal with. Some simply cannot be reached by us. Not now.

    My wife, unfortunately, falls into that category. I trust Papa because I know that in the end all will be for the best of all concerned. It will be exactly as it should. Easier said than done but this is a vital truth.

    Leave it to Papa & Co.

    When I can, I interject small tidbits of info for them to think about. And you’ve probably already experienced this, but when you feel moved, and you’ll know when, act on it. Don’t go overboard though. The smallest amount sometimes becomes more than you thought possible.

    Keep up the love, concern, and willingness to serve. Remember though to take care of you. The rest will sort itself out in due time.

    God Bless You!

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  3. Marayah says:

    Hi Kibo =)
    What a joy to see you’re working on your new self made trade solution, congrats that you took yourself from where you were down on rock bottom hands and knees and FOUGHT ON. Man, have I been there myself, even without the love and light having reached my present (conscius) level of understanding. And even now, that I’ve grasped the idea of it and feel the urge to serve, heart bursting with love and devotion to make all sorts of contributions, I have bumped into so much counter strike, it makes everything kinda difficult to trigger some real movement in my local community. They don’t believe me when I try to present some truths, NWO, shadowmind activity etc. My work mate told my boss to send me for a medical, as she thought I was losing it, she even called the police and reported she considers me potentilally dangerous !! I worked it out but it was som ordeal to sit and explain to a doctor you feel better than ever. And then… what can you do if you want to prepare folks and yet cannot tell them any more about the events, background and circumstanced around the forthcoming 3DD etc? I had up posters but they took them down, typical small town stubborn ‘stay in the dark, safe good ole ignorant mislead dark place’ thing! But hey, I can still post on the net and read my AH. But you Ben Elohim Son, fighting your human carnate battle really touch many hearts by your…. open honesty and straight forward manner tell it as it is kinda style ❤ KEEP IT UP dear Kibo , we are with you in ALL all in you as ONE 😉

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    • Barbara says:

      Maraya
      i fully agree with Brian…; take care of you and the rest…!!! But, i understand you. I did the +/- the same some years ago, causing only fear, confusion and suspicion against me, etc…. Great lesson for my ego! We have to do what we can but remembering that each of us, you and me and Kibo and Brian…….and all , IS as S/HE IS. This does not mean you/we have to deny ourselfs……exactly the contrary….! i’m 61 and still learning and learning and learnig……; and learning for myself, i know it means that i can be and do different, for example, with my son, my grand-daughter, my friends…and everybody i meet everyday.

      GOD bless you…………and ALL of US.

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  4. Brian says:

    Just some observations and commentary…

    I find this so extremely important and refreshing…and reassuring as well…and a renewal of a long dormant; and so very important, often overlooked, part of not only who we are but will answer much about the nature of who we are…..of what creation is really about…

    That The Divine Feminine is finally making Her voice heard….oh She has always been there quietly (and I suspect that Papa was/is protecting maybe that Divine Feminine aspect of Itself, or maybe not protecting just waiting for the right time) supporting Papa….Letting Him handle things……which is the way it should be…for a time…

    Now

    The next ‘phase’ is apparently underway….just look around for a bit and watch the actions of others in ‘High Places’….watch the world…and its’ leaders, etc.

    Your, or should I say Papa’s, timing in having you talk to Momma is perfect.

    Do you all realize the importance of this?!

    We have entered the, “You need to talk to Momma” phase……Glory Hallelujah!!

    Mankind has, by and large, been based on and run by Patriarchal societies except for Indian cultures, both those of the West and East…American Indians and even Asian natives as well. Some may say, not so, well I beg to differ not argue.

    Matriarchal societies are the way to go! The way in which children find a better and much deeper understanding of what it means to serve God, which will eventually turn into, lead us, to being settled in Light and Life…just ask Russell Means, God rest His Soul…

    That’s all….an observation of the integration of this often overlooked extremely vital part of The Equation….

    And to maybe spark some thing more in what Kibo/Momma/Papa so eloquently put out there…

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    • theo says:

      Yes, excellent point, of course,
      where by
      that PERFECT BALANCE was there from the very aeons of all Creation –
      It was US, who got FINALLY cleared of our dogmas
      and are able to take it…

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  5. theo says:

    Hi, sweet Michael Son brother,
    love the way MAMA was teaching you to regain
    your HOLY DIGNITY.
    Be you too blessed for WHO YOU ARE
    eternally,
    for in you and from you and through you
    were the lessons we learned
    pure MAGNIFICENCE.
    Even you in your might
    looks like having used your hard time VERY creatively
    in your cocoon
    for I see your NEW wings emerging in the Sun, and they are marvellous.
    Your invitation does really make sense
    I have a lot to share
    and I’d really love to speak and to listen in love.
    The Psalm in my heart I still ought to you and I’ll do it.
    Feels to me like is our turn to respond –
    The GIANT LOVE WAVE from the PA/MA SOURCE
    was melting us all in ONE HEART.
    We should really answer back NOW
    as a CONSCIOUSNESS UNIT.

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  6. Barbara says:

    OK, all of us who are reading here and are living in one of following countries AND love Kibo and want try to help him trough his T-shirts-ART from HEAVEN-business…….please take note of the ZAZZLE web site and MAKE-IT-VIRAL in your country at the best way you can do.
    Pepole all over the world must know INFINTSHIRT = the Heaven on Hearth (by Kibo) !!!!

    This is our service and it can be done here-and-now. WE are ALL as ONE !!!!

    Thank you all for reading.
    Love
    Barbara (Italy)

    USA >> http://www.zazzle.com/infinitshirt+gifts
    GERMANY >> http://www.zazzle.de/infinitshirt+geschenke
    UK >> http://www.zazzle.co.uk/infinitshirt+gifts
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    JAPAN >> http://www.zazzle.co.jp/infinitshirt+ギフト
    SPAIN >> http://www.zazzle.es/infinitshirt+regalos
    BRASIL >> http://www.zazzle.com.br/infinitshirt+presentes
    SWEDEN >> http://www.zazzle.se/infinitshirt+presenter
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    NEW ZELAND >> http://www.zazzle.co.nz/infinitshirt+gifts

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    • kibodabi says:

      AHOYE BARBARA!!! LOL

      i don’t know how this ended up in the spam section…i do apologize…i don’t go there often…
      Thanks for the love and support….and thanks to the person that purchased three shirts today……i applaud your choice of shirt colors…..it looks good in pastels……………i get anywhere from $3 to $5 per shirt, with no overhead…which is why they’re so expensive…[apologies for that…can’t be helped] and i know the audience for it is not huge… but these are meant to be working tools for spiritual progress….all things being energy of some form or another…….so……it’s not how many i sell of these…it’s who i sell them to, that matters……….anyone that has any of them, please let me know if they are working properly or not…….any positive changes in energies, thoughts, spiritual pressure and tone…….and in some cases…material circumstances…whihc normally should happen over a period of time…but hey….let me know……….if any of you actually wear them….that’s how they activate….the more you wear it the better it’s supposed to work……operative word is supposed….so we’ll see if it works or not as time goes by….i stand with and by my work……..lol…for better or for worse……..and all that….

      my wife and i are working on shirts that could be more popular with the public without being too……well, let’s just say that they shouldn’t compromise any spiritual values….but hey, you tell us what you think when we finally put them up…maybe in another store…maybe not….we’re still discussing all that…….she having final say…..because that makes the most sense…..y’know…….hey…at least i’m realistic……..[insert huge, loving smile here]

      so thanks again for the ad support……..wow…i didn’t know that the address was so versatile…thanks for the lesson……….

      OH…please to send advice and ideas on that…i’m always open and interested………

      Be all of you blessed in the presence of THE ONE THAT IS ALL THINGS with, within you and all around you
      love, light…alll that good stuff to you…..kibo

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  7. Maranyah says:

    Oh. Kibo…. you are so lovable =) Thanks for all yor messages on AH and so forth. You have reached many hearts and spred the Truth with all your being, all yor spirit. We,ll send you support in as many ways as possible=D

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  8. Brian says:

    I am feeling very out spoken today…..imagine that?!

    No one out there that reads this blog has anything to say?

    Nothing…

    No support…

    He took the time to bare his soul…..on a public forum….no less….

    and still nothing from anyone

    wow….

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    • Barbara says:

      Ciao Brian
      are you sure that “no one …. has anythin to say? Nothing…. No support…”.
      From my side, for example, because of my basic level of english, it’s really difficult express well all my thoughts/feelings and also pose some questions. Do you know the speedy of my heart-beats when i’m thinking/imagining of Kibo’s and his family situation?
      Do you know how many people are praying for him? i do not know…….
      May be some people has sent money to him or bought some T-shirts or …… i do not know what, but if they did something like that, i do not think they post on a public forum.
      Because NOW he URGENTLY needs material-money supports …… this is the first “earthly” step, from my point of view. Is this point of view too low, too material, so far away from LIGHT?

      I’m sure that HE and MAMA and PAPA and CMAton and NEBADONIA and …..ALL are feeling/hearing/reading every thought of all of us……

      And……thanks Brian for all your comments on this forum, i like very much as you express yourself.

      Affettuosi abbracci.
      Buona serata!

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      • theo says:

        Hi, carrissima Barbara,
        glad to hear your loving voice here.
        Of course, I am one of those praying for Kibo days long
        and of course I’ll buy some t-shirts as soon as I balance myself.
        find your English excellent,
        abbracci,
        della bellissima stoccarda

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      • Brian says:

        Grazie!! Barbara! All I am saying is it would be nice to see more written here in support of Kibo. I don’t mean kiss his ass type comments….just some encouraging words…that’s all.

        I was moved immensely by his transparency….so I responded….

        Any one of us could find ourselves in a hot mess very quickly.

        I am grateful beyond words for being extremely blessed from above…

        God is more than good! We need to help each other more…not saying you specifically; just in general.

        Thank you again for the kind words, Barbara.

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        • kibodabi says:

          Brian…i love you as a twin brother…and that says a lot……..really….i consider you to be like a twin brother, being just like me in all ways except one…like a horse that is, in reality a unicorn……and all you need is your horn andmay MAMA and PAPA give it to you…..you deserve it.

          but let’s get a few thing straight about this experience
          that i just recently learned
          and maybe you guys can help me out with the results…if not more….

          1: prayers and heartfelt mental….conscious and subconscious[!?]support is what is necessary above and beyond all other considerations.
          these and such things are given to and by and determined by the individual involved and not one of us can know what they have done and are doing for anyone….me, in this case…………many have given and have given far longer than others and if they give monetarily, it is because of their faith and belief in what i am doing and they seek not to publicize it but simply to do and be it…..and so, in that since Barbara is right…….i am truly grateful for her support that comes in many forms because it exemplies a love and belief that i have always felt unworthy of because i never felt as if i was doing enough…but this whole thing…and the love and support that i am receiving from so many….has finally proven to me that i am not a bum…why that was so hard for me, i …..i….i can only say that it is all part of the Great Experience of being and doint it THE ONE to become what THE ONE is in all actuality………..hey, i’m learning

          2: THEY always come to me and ask me what i want……. and i have never known any answer that suits me other than to serve according to Their Will…..now, as i have come to understand…MAMA AND PAPA AS ONE AS EXEMPLIFIED BY AND IN AND THROUGH CHRIST MICHAEL ATON OF NEBADON AND NEBADONIA AS THE CREATORS AND RIGTHFUL RULERS AND OWNERS OF NEBADON THE UNIVERSE OF THEIR OWN MAKING……THOUGHT CM IS SOVEREIGN…HOW COULD IT BE SO IN ANY WAY WITHOUT NEBADONIA?
          AND SO IT IS….
          and so, now…i am called to speak for MAMA…but, as a man…male human being….and prefering that in and through my own experience….i seek to being completely and absolutely and supremely and ultimately like and as PAPA is…..but still…be everything that my Mother does….is anybody out there getting this? because there’s a lot of stuff coming through me very fast and quickly in a short amount of time because there’s not much time in which i can do this and still i hope that all of this will become…..unnecessary..as the world shifts upwards and forward and we….seemingly all of the sudden…HAHA…find ourselves in the next, higher world…..Thank God….but unhtil then i can only do what i can…so….i am being given time to throw it all out there…as much as i have learned in as few words as possible [please, i pray]that anyone out there that can benefit from my experience can do soas they are best able to do so if they so choose to do so……and that’s why i’m here…among other reasons……don’t ask unless you can handle it, for real real………

          in the meantime
          i have all the love and support from real people that have made themselves real enough for God Allmighty to consider them to be real and make them as real as He sees fit, working in agreement with them as individuals to make it so according to what they can handle as the get there………….a lot of this support does come in the form of money and i have always been grateful to them for the ongoing support, for they have helped me pay my bills and stay in my house and be able to do whatever it is that i do here, for many, many months now and they know it and have said nothing to increase themselves in the eyes of others for that…..and there are blessings for that and they come, not just from my petitions to Source fot them, but from the fact that they are earned and so….are delivered……
          so please know that the support that you speak of has always been there in whatever ways the individuals involved have chosen to give and express it……
          and so it is with you also…so please relax and be blessed in all of this that it may be good with all and wioth you as well as one in all of this and we may all prosper together……..

          now……..
          the main problem has come frommy inability to receive in grace that which i used to be able to give with such joy of being able to give has not been so heartfelt with such joy and grace in being able to receive…..and this is a lesson that has been hard for me to learn…but i can no longer apologize for it….all my apologetic sense of being what i am has been removed and i find that i cannot be sorry for being who and what i am and if that means being in need, then so be it…..i accept the love and familyhood and friendship and support of those that choose to give to me, personally, simply because they support me in my endavours to serve….for whatever reasons the deem fit…..and bless them all, each and every one, individually and collectively for it all…..and can go on from there with a good heart and calm sp[irit…and continue to grow and evolve and be better…with lessons learned and gratitude to you all for helping me learn these lessons. THANK YOU FOR BEING WHO AND WHAT YOU ARE IN RELATIONSHIP TO WHO AND WHAT I AM THAT WE MAY ALL BENEFIT FROM THE UNITY WE SHARE IN SOURCE IN AND OF AND AND BEING WIHT AND FOR…AND ACTUALLY BEING EACH OTHER AND REALIZING AND RECOGNIZING THAT….

          TO THAT END…I AM STATING THAT WHAT I, PERSONALLY WOULD LIKE TO SEE HERE…AS A MEANS OF SUPPORT OF THE VALUES AND IDEAS PRESENTED IN THIS BLOG…..IS NOT SO MUCH STATEMEMTS OF SUPPORT WHEN I ASK FOR HELP…OR STATEMENTS OF AGREEMENTS….OR DISAGREEMENTS…..BUT AN ACTUAL, OPEN ENDED AND VIABLE SHARING OF VALUES AS WE HAVE EXPERIENCED THEM IN OUR OWN JOURNEYS…..PLEASE DON’T JUST SAY…OH GOOD POST…OR TELL ME HOW NICE OR WONDERFUL OR FUCKED UP YOU THINK AND FEEL THAT I AM…..PUT YOUR OWN CARDS DOWN ON THE TALBE AND SHARED WHAT YOU HAVE LEARNED IN RELATION TO THE STUFF THAT I POST HERE…..ASK QUESTIONS, OFFER ALTERNATIVE VALUES AND IDEAS…WE ALL HAVE TO LEARN FROM EACH OTHER…IF YOU THINK ANYTHING THAT I HAVE POSTED HERE IS UTTER BULLSHIT, OR JUST BULLSHIT OR JUST A LITTLE BULLSHIT…PELASE SPEAK UP. IF YOU SAY YOU AGREE AND KNOW WHAT I MEAN…PLEASE STATE WHY AND SHARE YOUR OWN EXPERIENCES TO SUPPORT YOUR POSITION….THIS IS ULTIMATELY WHAT I AM LOOKING FOR FROM YOU GUYS….IT IS THE PRODUCTION OF VALUES THAT IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN MONEY FOR IT IS OUR VALUES THAT DETERMINES THE SHAPES OF OUR LIVES, INDIVIDUALLY AND COLLECTIVELY….AND THE MORE WE SHARE OF OURSELVES THE MORE WE CAN LEARN FROM AND TEACH OTHER OTHER TO COME TO THAT POINT WHERE WE ARE TRULY ONE AND THE SAME AND REALIZE THAT THEINGS THAT MAKE US EACH OF US UNIQUE IS WHAT HELPS TO BE ONE WITH EACH OTHER……….SO PLEASE…..I NEED YOU TO BE ABLE TO USE THIS BLOG TO PROMOTE YOUR OWN EXPERIENCES AS PART OF THE GRAND EXPERIENCE THAT WE MAY ALL UNDERSTAND MORE ABOUT EACH OTHER AND OURSLEVES AS WELL.

          If i can do that and make it work….having no other consideration, money or otherwise….in providing a place of growth through sharing….i have done something invaluable for all of us…..and that is what i want……..

          so i know you support me…and thanks for that….Source Bless you always in it…but, more importantly…..i need you and want you to use this as your own blog concerning spiritual matters…which includes EVERY motherfucking thing under the sunn…lol……and use this place and space to to add your owwn two cents….cards on the table…piss in the pot…..whatever……..just sayin’
          thanks for reading this and thanks for all the love, money and support…i wouldn’t have made it this far without you and wouldn’t be able to keep going without it…but it remains that want to offer you this opportunity…that you don’t really need me for and could yourself and yourselves…but i really want to share the whole experience of it with you…so those that are willing to share with the other that are willing to share and if all of you that are these people are willing to share on here…please do so…the rest will be what it is by Holy Will and all things will fall into place and we all will be here, not just to watch and see it all happen…but to be our part of it in this…little piece of it….as well

          Thanks for everything
          we’ll see how it goes
          All good things to you, from the SOURCE OF SOURCES
          being all things…..as one

          kibo

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  9. Tian says:

    Dear uncle kibo… I am no longer in the forum, don’t know how to send you a PM so leaving a message here. Hope you could contact me via e-mail as below, I really need to have a private talk with you…

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    • kibodabi says:

      there is no pm for this thing and nothing is private anymore anyway……..so if it is something pertinent that i can actually be of help with or serve in any way good To CM ATON, MAMA AND PAPA….please send me an email to the kibodabi@yahoo.com address…..that’s about the best i can do…i have no private rooms…………God blesses you and loves you all the time! YAAAAY!

      kibo

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  10. Brian says:

    MOMMA….PAPA….

    Are you kidding me?!! Have you heard this one……no, I mean, have you really heard him?!

    Uhm…..did you feel what he felt as he typed away…..w/his ass on fire, as it were….I SURE DID!

    I mean…who does that……put themselves out there like that…..in that manner, which, btw, is to be commended and more importantly…..rewarded!! And, in this case, if it were me…..I’d let him have it…..monetarily speaking, of course….

    For Heaven’s Sake…..surely a way can be made for him to not have to endure…what seems like an unusual share of this bull’s shit any more….

    I dunno…..what his deal is entirely…….only you do…..as it should be.

    But…..I am vouching for……lobbying for his release; for the same to be done for him as has been done for me….

    There’s a Psalms…..something….that comes to mind? When I was hard-pressed you brought me into an open space…….I think it was….that’s what I’m talkin bout!

    Please, please have mercy upon Kibo…..please help him out of this very real and very apparent cauldron of fire……

    I may be out of line and out of bounds by addressing Your Highnesses in this manner but I feel like it is the right thing to do.

    There has to be a way for him……now……he needs it….now!!

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